wad a morning...

it juz sux even more after tinking so much yesterday nite.. i kept tinking negetively on how to counter him if he say it's my fault lor... but i nvr tink.. y dun smoothly tok things out.. maybe becoz he treat me like that so i must treat him like that back... 'yi ya huan ya'...

starting morning's msges.....

sorry babe

if u r nothing to me.. u tink i woll care so much? i can might as well be like other guys lor.. but i neva..

not i dun care abt u lor.. not u mean nothing to me.. sometimes i'm in a difficult position lor.. i'm spending as much time as i could for u liao lor.. hope u understand..

i reallie hope this thing won't ruin our relationship lor..

morning

babe dun angry liao can? just to let u know lor.. i would nvr 4get u wan lor..

was lookikng through my dairy.. reading the past entries.. all the fun time we had when we knew each other.. then i close my eyes and recall those happy times.. tears juz start to flow..

soory.. all my fault

u putting ur hand on my lap when we were taking bus to eunos to go to bugis.. felt as if u were totally my bf.. the first time u actually ownself hug me.. onli once i remember.. tis was also last time thing..

everytime i hug u i feel so happy in one way. but in the other way.. it feels like i am hugging a pillar.. dun hug back.. am i asking too much affection from u.. i reallie wonder

i never say so

u can just play ur game and dun care when i'm angry.. and u expect me to pamper u when u are angry.. do u tink it is fair to me.. i dun need ex gifts to make me super happy.. juz ur affection towards me will be so comforting..

i nvr pamper u when u r angry? got lor..

wad u did yesterday u go tink lar.. dun come say i unresonable... wad u did when i stood at the kitchen window.. no actions done lor..

i also dunnoe wad to do.. is all my fault..

u dun come and tok cork lar.. u kuz mearly wanna copy wad i do lor.. it makes things even worst lor...

i never think this way lor..

then explain urself wad were u trying to proof when u were juz sitting there eyes super glues to the comp..

i'm very tired i dun wan to quarrel... i know if i go talk to u, u sure will quarrel...

u tired? okie lor.. so be it.. then i juz keep the problem to myself.. no solutions was implemented. nor have u anything to say..

then that was the end.. until now not a single call or msg.. we will see whether he will call or msg me... if tonite he still going to meet her... i will reallie 'fan lian' for sure!!! going to try wad i tot yesterday.. lata ui will in one way or another tell him that i not meeting ping today liao.. see wad will happen lor....

update more lata tonite....