sad... juz bored

another lonely and boring nitez...hai~...

bout 6.15pm went to meet gabriel to pass him empty disk to burn new techno songs for me... so that can play with bee's woofer... then when met gab liao i called bee see where he is.. he asked to buy dinner and ask if i wanted him to fetch me.. then he came down.. but we sat down for a while outside hougang mall coffee shop.. then me and gab toked bout new songs lor.. bee kept quiet... but there was a moment where gab kept staring and smiling at gab.. like wanting to tok to himbut bee didn't want to lor.. then i quickly drank finish my drink then said wanted to leave... but then bee wanted to let gab hear the beat that was sutible for his van... let him hear 2 techn dics of which can and which cannot.. then we left.. surprising bee didn't say anything bout gab but juz said that he wanted to bash him when he was looking and smiling at bee.. laugh until stomach pain lorx...

then went to his place to haf dinner.. then he went to pack some of his clothes.. bout 9 plus we went downstairs for a while he wanted to pack his van stuff.. then we went up... bo liao lor... after around 10 plus then he went to see her...

now playing maple with terry... told him that i was number 2 and he said i was mad.. hai~.. made some confessions bout wad happened last time.. hope he believes lar.. then tried asking if we had a chance to be back together.. then he jokingly said "we together wad.. xiao onli mah... " then i told him " get wad u mean.. then it's a no lor" then somewhere in the conversion.. i juz gave up he tot of forcing him to accept m back... now still toking to terry.. he said "xiao lao gong is can.. but hubby is hard lar"... told him " it's okie lar, i dun wanna put too much hope"... hai~.. i noe it's no hope lor.. but the thing is that i cannot put down.. it's dam difficult lor... juz need to fins someone who can reallie like me and care for me.. to hug and kiss and hold me... i will be contented lorx... hai~...

i betta stop tinking... white hair growing out liao... niteZ...

llooking forward to meet weiping to go bugis walk walk... long time nvr go out with her liao..