disappointed and sad

seems like it's so fast... one day i am so farking happy.. the next thing.. i feel like i have been thrown down from the sky... it's totally horrible lor.. sickening and painful...

i can tell him that i reach home or go where.. but he can't lor.. he juz can't.. today went for shu mei's wedding.. asked him if he could fetch.. it said 'can dun wan'... i juz said ok... then he asked if i was angry.. i nvr reply back and somemore no call or anything for that long time until i left home... okie nvm.. maybe he tired or something.. i dun keep that to heart.. while on the mrt.. he msged:

• dun drink too much k
• going to my new house.. dunno she coming anot..
• i asked him to haf fun.. then he said no lor
• tot he going with gf.. then he said he going with bro to new house
• she working..
• smile lah.. babe...
• happy abit lar

then when i reach Wedding... he msged:

• babe u reach liao arh..
• told him i got lost and lata taking cab back...
• he asked y?
• scared drunk arh
• scared break ur promise ar
• ENJOY URSELF.. WILL BE MISSING U..
• MUST GUAI GUAI THEN WILL TENG U K..

the whole while during the dinner.. no msg at all lor.. tot he was busy... then when the sinner ending i msged him... but nvr reply... then i called... he put down my phone... in my mind i confirm he going to meet that bitch lor.... the thing is he nvr even bother to tell me!!!! not even a word and expect me to keep tell him where i am everytime... reallie pissed off lor... sickening.. spoil my farkign mood... juz feel like going for a drink and losen up lor... hai~... tink a good nites slp will be better lar... said he will call me back... i juz said up to u.... dun bother waiting for his call.. goign to do my stuff... hair still wet..cannot slp...

FARKING TU LAN!!! FARKING DISAPPOINTED... IT'S ONE OF THOSE FARKING DAYS AGAIN... TOTALLY HEART BROKEN... WAD GIVE AND TAKE... I GAVE IN... BUT NVR TAKE ANYTHING IN RETURN LOR... WAD THE DAM IS GOIGN ON WITH ME.... I AM JUZ PUTTING TOO MUCH INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP... I SHOULDN'T DO THAT LOR!! IT'S TIME TO LESSEN THE LOVE AND CARE FOR HIM... SAID HE MISS ME... AND THIS IS WAD HE IS DOING TO ME!!! WAD THE FARK LOR... LAN JIAO WORDS LOR... GUYS WORDS CANNOT BELIEVE LOR...