i juz hate myself... i juz dunnoe wad i wan lor.. juz totally hate tis feeling lor...
hate a huge quarrel with him today... farking horrible... was crying... mainly becoz he slapped me... another was becoz i heart soft.... too soft lor... he can't let me go.. y? am i that good for him to still keep me? i can't find that answer... but the way he treated me is not like any bf's i had so far... he forgave me time and time again and again.. should i be grateful to have him in my life? i tink i should.. i tried all means to stay faithful... but in the back of my mind, i juz can't stop tinking that he has a gf and y he muz treat his gf like that lor... can't he stay faithful to her... tis i also can't get an answer....
went to jia hui's b'dae chalet at pasir ris... shu mei.. jac... dennis.. dennis gf was there... bee hoon and curry was nice... hehee... had to cook my own chicken wing and chicken chop.. did a lot of arm exercise lor... heehee... then i cooked one chicken half cooked.. but i still ate.. haha... came back with a stomach ache.. heehee.... jacq drove us home... on the way to my place dennis vomitted... wanted to go hougang plaza play pool a while wan... then dennis so drunk... so had to send him back first lor.. reached home not late lor... juz nice... 1.10 like that...
hai~... i dunnoe how to go on lor.. everyday is juz 'take one step at the time' kinda thing... dunnoe where will this go lor...
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