i juz hate myself... i juz dunnoe wad i wan lor.. juz totally hate tis feeling lor...
hate a huge quarrel with him today... farking horrible... was crying... mainly becoz he slapped me... another was becoz i heart soft.... too soft lor... he can't let me go.. y? am i that good for him to still keep me? i can't find that answer... but the way he treated me is not like any bf's i had so far... he forgave me time and time again and again.. should i be grateful to have him in my life? i tink i should.. i tried all means to stay faithful... but in the back of my mind, i juz can't stop tinking that he has a gf and y he muz treat his gf like that lor... can't he stay faithful to her... tis i also can't get an answer....
went to jia hui's b'dae chalet at pasir ris... shu mei.. jac... dennis.. dennis gf was there... bee hoon and curry was nice... hehee... had to cook my own chicken wing and chicken chop.. did a lot of arm exercise lor... heehee... then i cooked one chicken half cooked.. but i still ate.. haha... came back with a stomach ache.. heehee.... jacq drove us home... on the way to my place dennis vomitted... wanted to go hougang plaza play pool a while wan... then dennis so drunk... so had to send him back first lor.. reached home not late lor... juz nice... 1.10 like that...
hai~... i dunnoe how to go on lor.. everyday is juz 'take one step at the time' kinda thing... dunnoe where will this go lor...
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Saturday, July 30, 2005
bored
hai~.... play maple until tired..
happy that bee actually want to fetch me after sch.. heehee... then after i ate my breadfast, lunch and dinner together then we went over to his new house... he went to change the heater switch.. then smoothen his window grill thing.. then adjusted the front door lock... coz u had to pull the door then can lock.. then after that we went to his place... watched tv then around 10n plus dunnoe y mother kept calling then i went home...
now home... playin maple... bee went to give his fren ciggi but still not yet call me... feeling a bit sleepy so i guess i'm going to slp soon... nitez
oh yah.. tml is jia hui's b'dae.. going to pasir ris to celebrate... chalet bbq again... heehee
happy that bee actually want to fetch me after sch.. heehee... then after i ate my breadfast, lunch and dinner together then we went over to his new house... he went to change the heater switch.. then smoothen his window grill thing.. then adjusted the front door lock... coz u had to pull the door then can lock.. then after that we went to his place... watched tv then around 10n plus dunnoe y mother kept calling then i went home...
now home... playin maple... bee went to give his fren ciggi but still not yet call me... feeling a bit sleepy so i guess i'm going to slp soon... nitez
oh yah.. tml is jia hui's b'dae.. going to pasir ris to celebrate... chalet bbq again... heehee
Friday, July 29, 2005
sad... juz bored
another lonely and boring nitez...hai~...
bout 6.15pm went to meet gabriel to pass him empty disk to burn new techno songs for me... so that can play with bee's woofer... then when met gab liao i called bee see where he is.. he asked to buy dinner and ask if i wanted him to fetch me.. then he came down.. but we sat down for a while outside hougang mall coffee shop.. then me and gab toked bout new songs lor.. bee kept quiet... but there was a moment where gab kept staring and smiling at gab.. like wanting to tok to himbut bee didn't want to lor.. then i quickly drank finish my drink then said wanted to leave... but then bee wanted to let gab hear the beat that was sutible for his van... let him hear 2 techn dics of which can and which cannot.. then we left.. surprising bee didn't say anything bout gab but juz said that he wanted to bash him when he was looking and smiling at bee.. laugh until stomach pain lorx...
then went to his place to haf dinner.. then he went to pack some of his clothes.. bout 9 plus we went downstairs for a while he wanted to pack his van stuff.. then we went up... bo liao lor... after around 10 plus then he went to see her...
now playing maple with terry... told him that i was number 2 and he said i was mad.. hai~.. made some confessions bout wad happened last time.. hope he believes lar.. then tried asking if we had a chance to be back together.. then he jokingly said "we together wad.. xiao onli mah... " then i told him " get wad u mean.. then it's a no lor" then somewhere in the conversion.. i juz gave up he tot of forcing him to accept m back... now still toking to terry.. he said "xiao lao gong is can.. but hubby is hard lar"... told him " it's okie lar, i dun wanna put too much hope"... hai~.. i noe it's no hope lor.. but the thing is that i cannot put down.. it's dam difficult lor... juz need to fins someone who can reallie like me and care for me.. to hug and kiss and hold me... i will be contented lorx... hai~...
i betta stop tinking... white hair growing out liao... niteZ...
llooking forward to meet weiping to go bugis walk walk... long time nvr go out with her liao..
bout 6.15pm went to meet gabriel to pass him empty disk to burn new techno songs for me... so that can play with bee's woofer... then when met gab liao i called bee see where he is.. he asked to buy dinner and ask if i wanted him to fetch me.. then he came down.. but we sat down for a while outside hougang mall coffee shop.. then me and gab toked bout new songs lor.. bee kept quiet... but there was a moment where gab kept staring and smiling at gab.. like wanting to tok to himbut bee didn't want to lor.. then i quickly drank finish my drink then said wanted to leave... but then bee wanted to let gab hear the beat that was sutible for his van... let him hear 2 techn dics of which can and which cannot.. then we left.. surprising bee didn't say anything bout gab but juz said that he wanted to bash him when he was looking and smiling at bee.. laugh until stomach pain lorx...
then went to his place to haf dinner.. then he went to pack some of his clothes.. bout 9 plus we went downstairs for a while he wanted to pack his van stuff.. then we went up... bo liao lor... after around 10 plus then he went to see her...
now playing maple with terry... told him that i was number 2 and he said i was mad.. hai~.. made some confessions bout wad happened last time.. hope he believes lar.. then tried asking if we had a chance to be back together.. then he jokingly said "we together wad.. xiao onli mah... " then i told him " get wad u mean.. then it's a no lor" then somewhere in the conversion.. i juz gave up he tot of forcing him to accept m back... now still toking to terry.. he said "xiao lao gong is can.. but hubby is hard lar"... told him " it's okie lar, i dun wanna put too much hope"... hai~.. i noe it's no hope lor.. but the thing is that i cannot put down.. it's dam difficult lor... juz need to fins someone who can reallie like me and care for me.. to hug and kiss and hold me... i will be contented lorx... hai~...
i betta stop tinking... white hair growing out liao... niteZ...
llooking forward to meet weiping to go bugis walk walk... long time nvr go out with her liao..
wad a driving lesson
had my 2nd route trail today... reallie feel that i have improved a lot in my driving and going off... the route aren't that difficult... it's just the toopid traffic... sickening lor. hai~.. the topid cars... i dun dare to squeeze in lor.. hai~.. a lot of mistakes here and there lor.. scared...
some of the common mistakes:
some of the common mistakes:
- checking of blindspot
- checking to first gear...
- checking of front view mirror..
- turning of the sterring wheel fast while U-turning...
hai... muz go for more pracitces and make it a habit lor... then when driving i can let loose and relax.. no need to worry bout minusing marks...
miss hubby and xiao hubby...
Thursday, July 28, 2005
haha... happy day...
okie... wad to say bout today... everything seems well lor.. heehee...
had a full day today... sianz.. marathon class from 1 to 6.. sianz half lor.. super tired.. then after my final lesson i was like shacked out.. super tired lor.. then went home straight.. tot could at least take a nap since he was with his bro buying stuff for his new house... but who noes he reached home like 7.. then after i bathed i straight away went to buy dinner... we ate chicken chop with rice.. nice siah.. but not as nice as wad terry can do.. hai~....
then after we finished dinner.. went straight to give john his ciggi then went over to his new house.. okie lar the place.. veri modern... quite spacious.. nice lightings lor... then he went to change the switches and i kept fanning him... heehee... we went there like 9 plus.. finsihed around 12 plus... a lot of switch need to change lor... i learnt something of the wires.. heehee.. he sort of taught me.. heehee...
but then terry called me.. i was like super happy lor.. heeehee.. but i forgot to tell him that i and him patch liao.. heee... but happy that he called.. reallie missed his voice... hai~... then he asked bout maple lor.. now we can play together liek the good old days!!! i miss those days...hai~
now playing maple with him.. so happy lor.. reallie wish we can go out for ride or something.. wanna hug him tight tight... miss his hug.. hai~... i go play maple liao.. heehee.. helping him train...
had a full day today... sianz.. marathon class from 1 to 6.. sianz half lor.. super tired.. then after my final lesson i was like shacked out.. super tired lor.. then went home straight.. tot could at least take a nap since he was with his bro buying stuff for his new house... but who noes he reached home like 7.. then after i bathed i straight away went to buy dinner... we ate chicken chop with rice.. nice siah.. but not as nice as wad terry can do.. hai~....
then after we finished dinner.. went straight to give john his ciggi then went over to his new house.. okie lar the place.. veri modern... quite spacious.. nice lightings lor... then he went to change the switches and i kept fanning him... heehee... we went there like 9 plus.. finsihed around 12 plus... a lot of switch need to change lor... i learnt something of the wires.. heehee.. he sort of taught me.. heehee...
but then terry called me.. i was like super happy lor.. heeehee.. but i forgot to tell him that i and him patch liao.. heee... but happy that he called.. reallie missed his voice... hai~... then he asked bout maple lor.. now we can play together liek the good old days!!! i miss those days...hai~
now playing maple with him.. so happy lor.. reallie wish we can go out for ride or something.. wanna hug him tight tight... miss his hug.. hai~... i go play maple liao.. heehee.. helping him train...
everything is okie liAo...
after meeting him yesterday, everything was back to normal like nothing has happened....
he ownself msg me and told me that he was meeting me... say wad bring me out... then i was like okie lor... then he msg me 1030pm go opp my house and wait for him... but then he was late lor... idiot freak was late lor... while waiting at the bus stop had my first puff for the day.. felt a bit dizzy lorx.. heehee... then when he came i just kept quiet while he compared his ner woofer and amp with his normal speaker... was not actually giving much a dam about it.. juz acknowledged and smiled lor... nothing was said bout yesterday or the quarrel... so my anger slowly cooled down... then we went to scissors cut( curry rice) at jalan besar there and we waited in the van for ah boy to come... while waited we kept blasting the system with techno songs and r&b songs...
then ah boy came... we went to have a drink and they toked bout cars again.. i juz kept quiet.. then all of a sudden ah boy suddenly wanted to ask qian li out to hear him complain about his woofer and speaker he has on his bike.... then i tried asking ah boy can don't meet him... then ah boy kept asking y... i tot hubby got tell ah boy about me him and qian li's story.. but apparently not.. so after ahboy confirmed the meeting with qian li then i and hubby told ah boy the story... it goes like this...
''''""""''''>>....
qian li is my ex... it was like before sch start when i was still working at "i gourmet"... when qian li asked me out... then one nite he ask me out to play pool with his frens and i agreed.. then he introed his fren ah bee to me.. another time when we went out he asked ah bee to fetch me... that time i was at dixon's sis place.. he was dying hair her... then ah bee came from hougang to marine parade to fetch me... then went to meet qian li.. on the way we toked and could sosialize... quite okie.... abit of likeing for him.. then a few times after that me and ah bee went out without telling qian li... then slowly me and ah bee become closer until now lor.. qian li doesn't noe that we are together.. juz noe that we are frens...
"""""''''<<....
and that is the story behind it... heehee... after ah boy heard that he was like saying... ai yoh.. complicated haha... but alreadi meet so not nice to say not going alreadi mah... hai~.. me and hubby juz exchange gazes lorx...
12.15am we went to yishun dam to meet qian li... ah bee tot qian li won't bring the gf along.. but who noes.. he brought lor... sickening... dun like her lor.. small ah lian... i was like an outcast lor... i sat quite far away from them... juz listened to the music lor... blasting like hell lor... super loud.. then all the while i juz sat in the van and play game and listen to music lor... didn't care to socialise with them... hubby and ah boy came forward and toked to me lar... didn't bother to tok to qian li lorx... no interest... then bout 2 something we went back... hubby came over to my place... we watched tv for a while then both knocked out.. super tired.. then bout 6.30am like that hubby went home... i continued to slp till 7.30am ... but then i offed the alarm and slept till 8.45am.. ARH!!! late for lesson lor.. shit.. then took a cab to class... at 9am gave hubby a morning call... lucky thing i onli had to call twice..... heehee .... now slacking in lvl5 lab and doing nothing... sianz...... lata in the nite can meet hubby... yeh!!! he not meeting HER!!! gOOD... GOOD...!!!!
he ownself msg me and told me that he was meeting me... say wad bring me out... then i was like okie lor... then he msg me 1030pm go opp my house and wait for him... but then he was late lor... idiot freak was late lor... while waiting at the bus stop had my first puff for the day.. felt a bit dizzy lorx.. heehee... then when he came i just kept quiet while he compared his ner woofer and amp with his normal speaker... was not actually giving much a dam about it.. juz acknowledged and smiled lor... nothing was said bout yesterday or the quarrel... so my anger slowly cooled down... then we went to scissors cut( curry rice) at jalan besar there and we waited in the van for ah boy to come... while waited we kept blasting the system with techno songs and r&b songs...
then ah boy came... we went to have a drink and they toked bout cars again.. i juz kept quiet.. then all of a sudden ah boy suddenly wanted to ask qian li out to hear him complain about his woofer and speaker he has on his bike.... then i tried asking ah boy can don't meet him... then ah boy kept asking y... i tot hubby got tell ah boy about me him and qian li's story.. but apparently not.. so after ahboy confirmed the meeting with qian li then i and hubby told ah boy the story... it goes like this...
''''""""''''>>....
qian li is my ex... it was like before sch start when i was still working at "i gourmet"... when qian li asked me out... then one nite he ask me out to play pool with his frens and i agreed.. then he introed his fren ah bee to me.. another time when we went out he asked ah bee to fetch me... that time i was at dixon's sis place.. he was dying hair her... then ah bee came from hougang to marine parade to fetch me... then went to meet qian li.. on the way we toked and could sosialize... quite okie.... abit of likeing for him.. then a few times after that me and ah bee went out without telling qian li... then slowly me and ah bee become closer until now lor.. qian li doesn't noe that we are together.. juz noe that we are frens...
"""""''''<<....
and that is the story behind it... heehee... after ah boy heard that he was like saying... ai yoh.. complicated haha... but alreadi meet so not nice to say not going alreadi mah... hai~.. me and hubby juz exchange gazes lorx...
12.15am we went to yishun dam to meet qian li... ah bee tot qian li won't bring the gf along.. but who noes.. he brought lor... sickening... dun like her lor.. small ah lian... i was like an outcast lor... i sat quite far away from them... juz listened to the music lor... blasting like hell lor... super loud.. then all the while i juz sat in the van and play game and listen to music lor... didn't care to socialise with them... hubby and ah boy came forward and toked to me lar... didn't bother to tok to qian li lorx... no interest... then bout 2 something we went back... hubby came over to my place... we watched tv for a while then both knocked out.. super tired.. then bout 6.30am like that hubby went home... i continued to slp till 7.30am ... but then i offed the alarm and slept till 8.45am.. ARH!!! late for lesson lor.. shit.. then took a cab to class... at 9am gave hubby a morning call... lucky thing i onli had to call twice..... heehee
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
sianz...
nothing seems to be doing fine... not even a call from him lor.. juz msged onli lor.. sianz... dun have any feeling for him lorx... he wan call then call lor... i dun give a dam... till now no call since 5 lor.. nvr even aske me if i wanna go his place or anything lor... somemore now raining so heavily.. how to go ... sickening lor... tis kind of bf... wad the hell lorx...
dun care lar.. he wan call then call.. dun wan then forget bout it lor.. he wan go find her his problem lor.. dun give a farking dam about it!!!
HE IS AN ASS!!!! JUST DUNNOE HOW TO MAKE ME HAPPY LOR... NOW GOT PROBLEM HAPPEN HE JUST TREAT AS NOTHING HAPPENED LORX... WAD THE FARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM NOT SAYING SOORIE FOR THAT MSG I SEND TO HIM TO SCOLD HIM... I AM NOT CALLING HIM EITHER!!!!!!!!!
dun care lar.. he wan call then call.. dun wan then forget bout it lor.. he wan go find her his problem lor.. dun give a farking dam about it!!!
HE IS AN ASS!!!! JUST DUNNOE HOW TO MAKE ME HAPPY LOR... NOW GOT PROBLEM HAPPEN HE JUST TREAT AS NOTHING HAPPENED LORX... WAD THE FARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM NOT SAYING SOORIE FOR THAT MSG I SEND TO HIM TO SCOLD HIM... I AM NOT CALLING HIM EITHER!!!!!!!!!
wad a morning...
it juz sux even more after tinking so much yesterday nite.. i kept tinking negetively on how to counter him if he say it's my fault lor... but i nvr tink.. y dun smoothly tok things out.. maybe becoz he treat me like that so i must treat him like that back... 'yi ya huan ya'...
starting morning's msges.....
sorry babe
if u r nothing to me.. u tink i woll care so much? i can might as well be like other guys lor.. but i neva..
not i dun care abt u lor.. not u mean nothing to me.. sometimes i'm in a difficult position lor.. i'm spending as much time as i could for u liao lor.. hope u understand..
i reallie hope this thing won't ruin our relationship lor..
babe dun angry liao can? just to let u know lor.. i would nvr 4get u wan lor..
was lookikng through my dairy.. reading the past entries.. all the fun time we had when we knew each other.. then i close my eyes and recall those happy times.. tears juz start to flow..
soory.. all my fault
u putting ur hand on my lap when we were taking bus to eunos to go to bugis.. felt as if u were totally my bf.. the first time u actually ownself hug me.. onli once i remember.. tis was also last time thing..
everytime i hug u i feel so happy in one way. but in the other way.. it feels like i am hugging a pillar.. dun hug back.. am i asking too much affection from u.. i reallie wonder
i never say so
u can just play ur game and dun care when i'm angry.. and u expect me to pamper u when u are angry.. do u tink it is fair to me.. i dun need ex gifts to make me super happy.. juz ur affection towards me will be so comforting..
i nvr pamper u when u r angry? got lor..
wad u did yesterday u go tink lar.. dun come say i unresonable... wad u did when i stood at the kitchen window.. no actions done lor..
i also dunnoe wad to do.. is all my fault..
u dun come and tok cork lar.. u kuz mearly wanna copy wad i do lor.. it makes things even worst lor...
i never think this way lor..
then explain urself wad were u trying to proof when u were juz sitting there eyes super glues to the comp..
i'm very tired i dun wan to quarrel... i know if i go talk to u, u sure will quarrel...
u tired? okie lor.. so be it.. then i juz keep the problem to myself.. no solutions was implemented. nor have u anything to say..
then that was the end.. until now not a single call or msg.. we will see whether he will call or msg me... if tonite he still going to meet her... i will reallie 'fan lian' for sure!!! going to try wad i tot yesterday.. lata ui will in one way or another tell him that i not meeting ping today liao.. see wad will happen lor....
update more lata tonite....
starting morning's msges.....
then that was the end.. until now not a single call or msg.. we will see whether he will call or msg me... if tonite he still going to meet her... i will reallie 'fan lian' for sure!!! going to try wad i tot yesterday.. lata ui will in one way or another tell him that i not meeting ping today liao.. see wad will happen lor....
update more lata tonite....
Monday, July 25, 2005
tu lan... farking tiu lan
tis is reallie sickening... i give him a little lor.. he total 'de cun jing ce' sickening lr... yesterday wanted him to go meet her coz the whole day no call him.. then tot today can accompany me or something.. in the end.. wad the hell lor... he still go accompany her lor.. coz wad... HER fren wan ciggi.. then i msged him when we were home..
>Me> MUST go see HER today meh?
>him> her fren wan ciggi
>Me> MUST go HER place after that meh?
>him> after that i tink i have no choice lor..
>Me> it's ur choice lor..
>him> wad u wan me to say.. i'm spending most of my now time with u liao lor
>Me>if u tink now is enough then i got nothing to say lor
then he nvr reply... he juz kept playing his game.. i juz stood at the
then i juz told him i going to meet wei ping coz she wanted to dl application and take her MMC card.. but he nvr say anything lor.. he doesn't even care lor.. after that wp called then i juz left.. he still dun wanna say anything.. then went i left.. i juz msged him
>Me> oh yah.. u wan call or dun call me lata is up to u
>him> u wan say this kind of things lor
>Me> u dun wan say anything wad
>him> will call u lor.. coz she also start to kpkb liao mah..
>Me> then u muz as well everyday go see HER.. 5 day plus 2 more days onli lor.. u dun understand how i feel lor.. farking tu lan..
then after that nothing.. no msg at all... he nvr even try to say soorie or anything lor... he juz tinks it's nothing lor... and it's all getting even worst
POH ENG PENG IS AN ASS HOLE!!!!!!!!! LIER!!!FARKER!!!! FARKING FARKER!!! y does he wanna treat me like that.. i put in not enough meh.. farking hell lor... i am HOT... farKing HOT!!!!!!!
>Me> MUST go see HER today meh?
>him> her fren wan ciggi
>Me> MUST go HER place after that meh?
>him> after that i tink i have no choice lor..
>Me> it's ur choice lor..
>him> wad u wan me to say.. i'm spending most of my now time with u liao lor
>Me>if u tink now is enough then i got nothing to say lor
then he nvr reply... he juz kept playing his game.. i juz stood at the
kitchen window and stare into space lor.. he nvr even did anything lor...
then i juz told him i going to meet wei ping coz she wanted to dl application and take her MMC card.. but he nvr say anything lor.. he doesn't even care lor.. after that wp called then i juz left.. he still dun wanna say anything.. then went i left.. i juz msged him
>Me> oh yah.. u wan call or dun call me lata is up to u
>him> u wan say this kind of things lor
>Me> u dun wan say anything wad
>him> will call u lor.. coz she also start to kpkb liao mah..
>Me> then u muz as well everyday go see HER.. 5 day plus 2 more days onli lor.. u dun understand how i feel lor.. farking tu lan..
then after that nothing.. no msg at all... he nvr even try to say soorie or anything lor... he juz tinks it's nothing lor... and it's all getting even worst
now lor.. coz he nvr call at all lor.. wad a bloody farker lor... i am reallie farking pissed off... i am not waiting for.. he can not call for all i care!!! farking ass hole!!!!!
POH ENG PENG IS AN ASS HOLE!!!!!!!!! LIER!!!FARKER!!!! FARKING FARKER!!! y does he wanna treat me like that.. i put in not enough meh.. farking hell lor... i am HOT... farKing HOT!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 24, 2005
sianz!!!
sianz lor.. hubby at HER place today.. told him to go actually... coz yesterday she nvr even call.. see.. there got lao er so good one... hai~...
brought bro to church at 5.. then sat at the coffee shop alone for 1 hr.. then lata went for mass.. heehee.. after tt met grandmother then went to KOPITIAM and eat dinner... then after tt met up with ah xiong.. took pings mmc card.. then went home..
wad a boring day... hubby called.. he not home yet sianz... lata then he callign again.. i hope.. hai~
it's sat... and i'm still home!!! sianZZZ
Friday, July 22, 2005
wahwah... boring lor
hai~sianz lei... onli saw hubby for a while onli...
woke up at 3.30pm lor... super tired.. then about 6.30 walked to kopitiam to get dinner for hubby... then he msged and told me that his bro at home... then i totally sianz lor.. sickening.. then i walked to mrt to top up my ez-link card... then walked to my void deck there and tok to wei ping.. then about 7.15 like that i walk to hubby's house there the coffee shop and watch tv.. kept callign him nvr answer then i got fed up lor... tot if he nvr call back then i go home liao... but after a while he called back lor.. then say his hp bomb alreadi lar.. but then i was like totally sianz half alreadi lor... hai~... then he came down.. but i was a bit black face lar... then he actually tried to hold my hand lor... was so touched.. heehee... then i kept pestering him to buy ipod for me lor.. heehee... since he getting so much money back from ppl hehee... i dun care lor.. i will keep pestering him lor... i wan my ipod!!!!
sianz... hubby not yet call.. hai~... still waiting....
woke up at 3.30pm lor... super tired.. then about 6.30 walked to kopitiam to get dinner for hubby... then he msged and told me that his bro at home... then i totally sianz lor.. sickening.. then i walked to mrt to top up my ez-link card... then walked to my void deck there and tok to wei ping.. then about 7.15 like that i walk to hubby's house there the coffee shop and watch tv.. kept callign him nvr answer then i got fed up lor... tot if he nvr call back then i go home liao... but after a while he called back lor.. then say his hp bomb alreadi lar.. but then i was like totally sianz half alreadi lor... hai~... then he came down.. but i was a bit black face lar... then he actually tried to hold my hand lor... was so touched.. heehee... then i kept pestering him to buy ipod for me lor.. heehee... since he getting so much money back from ppl hehee... i dun care lor.. i will keep pestering him lor... i wan my ipod!!!!
sianz... hubby not yet call.. hai~... still waiting....
Thursday, July 21, 2005
sianz... full day today..
wah... full day lei... sianz lor... tiring... 2 days nvr come sch then today suddenly full day.. wah lao.. but then i eating snake now lor... not going for MDBS lab... if i go now then will 3.45pm reach lor.. teacher will surely mark absent.. so now at FYP lab at as block 'nua' with jerren and vanessa... they doing their stuff.. lata still going for MWNK tut at 5... then after that go straight to ubi to book for TP.. then after that head down to hubby's place... miz him man...
ping called me today and confirm she buying 6670... happy for her she made the right decision... at least lata on i can share applications with her... then betta mah.. any new things she can tell me.. i noe any new things also can update her.. cool siah.. she also scared i mind her getting the same phone as me... no worries man... i dun mind... heehee.. same same lor.. no bigga deal wan...
sianz...
ping called me today and confirm she buying 6670... happy for her she made the right decision... at least lata on i can share applications with her... then betta mah.. any new things she can tell me.. i noe any new things also can update her.. cool siah.. she also scared i mind her getting the same phone as me... no worries man... i dun mind... heehee.. same same lor.. no bigga deal wan...
sianz...
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
arh.. i've PASSED!!!!!
i am so freeking HAPPY!!!! i actually could pass at my second attempt!!!!! lucky lor... juz went for one trail test tat's all and i could manage to pass lor... i was so freeking scared when i went in lor.. i told myself that i muz finish it fast and double check after every question.. and i did it lor.. happy when i saw the PASSED!!!!!
the first person i called was hubby lor... he was happy for me... heehee... at least something...
but in the nite we had some quarrel.. hai~... but now okie liao.. always like that lar.. sianz... up an down and up and down... worst then rollar coaster!!!
WAITING FOR HUBBY'S CALL.....
the first person i called was hubby lor... he was happy for me... heehee... at least something...
but in the nite we had some quarrel.. hai~... but now okie liao.. always like that lar.. sianz... up an down and up and down... worst then rollar coaster!!!
WAITING FOR HUBBY'S CALL.....
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
arh... my wish came thorugh..
arh... my wish came through!!! hubby came to fetch me after my driving lesson... heehee... was happy lor... then went to the coffee shop and i bought my dinner.. then went over his place to haf dinner...
everything was so nice today lor.. it was juz per normal.. like nothing happened after yesterday.. i'm happy... today he went to see her.. coz lata they going to meet qian li... keagan... and his other frens lar... it's alrite... dun quite fill the pinch.. go go lor... at least he got call me lata on and not to forget me lor.. that's the least i can expect...
hai~.... feel that i am 'buai zhi dong'... must he say then i do.. hai~... tml got advanced theory test.... got to pass lei... i wanna book TP!!! arh!!!
everything was so nice today lor.. it was juz per normal.. like nothing happened after yesterday.. i'm happy... today he went to see her.. coz lata they going to meet qian li... keagan... and his other frens lar... it's alrite... dun quite fill the pinch.. go go lor... at least he got call me lata on and not to forget me lor.. that's the least i can expect...
hai~.... feel that i am 'buai zhi dong'... must he say then i do.. hai~... tml got advanced theory test.... got to pass lei... i wanna book TP!!! arh!!!
Monday, July 18, 2005
huge quarrel
today's quarrel was the worst lor... started at his place.. then ended up quarreling with him at changi village lor.. somemore in front of jerren and kelvin lor...
i didn't want to sit his van when we wanted to go back.. so i juz sat in kelvin's car.. then when kelvin drove off.. he called me but i nvr answer the call.. then he call kelvin ask me get into his van.. but i still didn't want.. he came down to the van and drag me out of the car lor... he pulled me with great force lor... jerren see also got a shock lor... he was super mad lor.. i was like farking scared lor.. legs were trembling like mad lor... heart beating like nobody's business lor... i was dam scared... then those farking ah gua keep waiting for him to slap me or something lor.. then he scolded them... they kept carrying the phone and waiting to take pic of him slapping me lor.. then after a while.. they kept making a lot of noise lor.. i cannot tah han then i shouted 'diam' at them lor... then after a while they stopped looking... then we continued our quarrel lor..
tink it's juz me lar.. i noe it's my fault but i juz keep quiet and dun solve everything... then when at my place already.. i kept wanting to break with him lor.. but dun have the guts lor.. he juz kept forgiving me over and over again lor... i juz wan him to say break and that's it lor.. but he is always trying to save it... y??? i;m i that worth for him to forgive when i do so many toopid things.. dun understand lor... then he wanted me to 'si nine' him.. 'orh neh' him lar.. very farnie lor.. him telling me wad to do lor.. felt freaking farnie... hahaha... but then i did lar... haha. was laughing my head off after he left....
ger was very sweet lor..she scared something happen to me and asked kelvin to wait and see wad happened... then she called and asked if everything was fine lor... she waited till 4 plus lei... went roounding with kelvin at the same time makign sure nothing happen to me lor... touched lor.. hai~...
i betta get some rest.. tml still got to go for e-trial lesson.. then after that my driving lesson at 4 plus.. dunnoe whether he will come and fetch me after my lesson anot... tink not lar... after wad happened today...
hate myself for being so soft... juz hate it.. i use too much of my heart lor...
i didn't want to sit his van when we wanted to go back.. so i juz sat in kelvin's car.. then when kelvin drove off.. he called me but i nvr answer the call.. then he call kelvin ask me get into his van.. but i still didn't want.. he came down to the van and drag me out of the car lor... he pulled me with great force lor... jerren see also got a shock lor... he was super mad lor.. i was like farking scared lor.. legs were trembling like mad lor... heart beating like nobody's business lor... i was dam scared... then those farking ah gua keep waiting for him to slap me or something lor.. then he scolded them... they kept carrying the phone and waiting to take pic of him slapping me lor.. then after a while.. they kept making a lot of noise lor.. i cannot tah han then i shouted 'diam' at them lor... then after a while they stopped looking... then we continued our quarrel lor..
tink it's juz me lar.. i noe it's my fault but i juz keep quiet and dun solve everything... then when at my place already.. i kept wanting to break with him lor.. but dun have the guts lor.. he juz kept forgiving me over and over again lor... i juz wan him to say break and that's it lor.. but he is always trying to save it... y??? i;m i that worth for him to forgive when i do so many toopid things.. dun understand lor... then he wanted me to 'si nine' him.. 'orh neh' him lar.. very farnie lor.. him telling me wad to do lor.. felt freaking farnie... hahaha... but then i did lar... haha. was laughing my head off after he left....
ger was very sweet lor..she scared something happen to me and asked kelvin to wait and see wad happened... then she called and asked if everything was fine lor... she waited till 4 plus lei... went roounding with kelvin at the same time makign sure nothing happen to me lor... touched lor.. hai~...
i betta get some rest.. tml still got to go for e-trial lesson.. then after that my driving lesson at 4 plus.. dunnoe whether he will come and fetch me after my lesson anot... tink not lar... after wad happened today...
hate myself for being so soft... juz hate it.. i use too much of my heart lor...
Sunday, July 17, 2005
had a small quarrel today
hai... wad a day today.. up and down lor....
went to meet hubby at around 3 plus after his work... then went he came to fetch me to give gabriel his ciggis.. then we went to hougang ave 8 there and ate lunch... then one of his frens bought his bike lor.. then he kept complaining y the guy nvr ask him his bike got any problem first before he bought.. ALBERT MOTORSHOP SUX!! the one at redhill industry.... dun ever buy anything from them.. they 'tok' ur money one... hubby kept saying the guy y he dunnoe how to buy the bike off from him.. cheaper lor.. the guy also toopid wan.. then went over to hubby's place... then while at his place.. suddenly he take out my wallet and saw a movie ticket... the one i saw with MONSOON ppl lor.. wang, his gf, jasper, coco, vincent..... he dun believe me lor.. sianz half... then quarrel all the way until he went to meet her lor... but before i left his van.. he kinda simmer down a little.. then around 11 plus he called.. early lor... then we were toking nicely lor.. so nothing happen
ping was so nice teaching me how to put my pic on my blog... then now i noe lor... but song a bit the difficult lei.. dunnoe y i cannot use angelfire. hai.... going to slp... super tired.... miss hubby loads lor.. today we kiss and hug a lot lor... heehe.. i'm loving every moment with him!!
went to meet hubby at around 3 plus after his work... then went he came to fetch me to give gabriel his ciggis.. then we went to hougang ave 8 there and ate lunch... then one of his frens bought his bike lor.. then he kept complaining y the guy nvr ask him his bike got any problem first before he bought.. ALBERT MOTORSHOP SUX!! the one at redhill industry.... dun ever buy anything from them.. they 'tok' ur money one... hubby kept saying the guy y he dunnoe how to buy the bike off from him.. cheaper lor.. the guy also toopid wan.. then went over to hubby's place... then while at his place.. suddenly he take out my wallet and saw a movie ticket... the one i saw with MONSOON ppl lor.. wang, his gf, jasper, coco, vincent..... he dun believe me lor.. sianz half... then quarrel all the way until he went to meet her lor... but before i left his van.. he kinda simmer down a little.. then around 11 plus he called.. early lor... then we were toking nicely lor.. so nothing happen
ping was so nice teaching me how to put my pic on my blog... then now i noe lor... but song a bit the difficult lei.. dunnoe y i cannot use angelfire. hai.... going to slp... super tired.... miss hubby loads lor.. today we kiss and hug a lot lor... heehe.. i'm loving every moment with him!!
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i'm home.... heehee... bathed, washed up, cleaned, refreshed... but still slpy...
had a cool and half half boring day yesterday.. went to hubby's place at around 7.30pm... bought chicken chop for him and tibits.... then me was stuck onto the miniclip game.. some cute fishing game.. then after that went over to his frens place to pass things to him... then went back to his palce to continue watching the 9pm show... then vanessa wanted to come out.. so she went to jerren's place first.. then lata kelvin go down fetch her at tamp.. then aroung 11.30pm like that.. we went to meet boy at jalan besar the "scissors cut"... boy wanted to eat curry rice.. then we sat there and wanted so long for kevin to come.. he came with vanessa like around 1am lor... then after that we went to marina south play pool... me and vanessa open the pool table while the guys open the billard table.. but me and vanessa played for a while onli, then she had to go home... so i sat down beside the billard table look at hubby and ah boy play.. kelvin fetch vanessa home.. after that kelvin came back.. then while playing with hubby.. he kept asking where we going after that.. and he wanted to tok something 'serious'... hubby like noe wad kelvin wants lor.. then he asked him isit money... then i gave hubby the stare "still dare to lebd him" look .. 3 plus we left marina south.. was hungry so we went to keppel there got one malay coffee shop and ate prata lor... kevin keep asking and begging for money lor.. say he wan to borrow $200 to pay his hp bill... hubby won't lend him lor.. then he ask ah boy.. but dunnoe ah boy will be that toopid to lend him anot.. kelvin alreadi took so long to return $500 to hubby liao lor.. i reallie look down on him lor... then after that went over to hubby's place.. knock out until morning lor..dam tired lor.. now still feel slpy... but lata got E-trail test at 3.15.... so waking up at 2 plus lar... niteZ ppl
took pic of hubby playing pool...
had a cool and half half boring day yesterday.. went to hubby's place at around 7.30pm... bought chicken chop for him and tibits.... then me was stuck onto the miniclip game.. some cute fishing game.. then after that went over to his frens place to pass things to him... then went back to his palce to continue watching the 9pm show... then vanessa wanted to come out.. so she went to jerren's place first.. then lata kelvin go down fetch her at tamp.. then aroung 11.30pm like that.. we went to meet boy at jalan besar the "scissors cut"... boy wanted to eat curry rice.. then we sat there and wanted so long for kevin to come.. he came with vanessa like around 1am lor... then after that we went to marina south play pool... me and vanessa open the pool table while the guys open the billard table.. but me and vanessa played for a while onli, then she had to go home... so i sat down beside the billard table look at hubby and ah boy play.. kelvin fetch vanessa home.. after that kelvin came back.. then while playing with hubby.. he kept asking where we going after that.. and he wanted to tok something 'serious'... hubby like noe wad kelvin wants lor.. then he asked him isit money... then i gave hubby the stare "still dare to lebd him" look .. 3 plus we left marina south.. was hungry so we went to keppel there got one malay coffee shop and ate prata lor... kevin keep asking and begging for money lor.. say he wan to borrow $200 to pay his hp bill... hubby won't lend him lor.. then he ask ah boy.. but dunnoe ah boy will be that toopid to lend him anot.. kelvin alreadi took so long to return $500 to hubby liao lor.. i reallie look down on him lor... then after that went over to hubby's place.. knock out until morning lor..dam tired lor.. now still feel slpy... but lata got E-trail test at 3.15.... so waking up at 2 plus lar... niteZ ppl
took pic of hubby playing pool...
Saturday, July 16, 2005
cool man
juz finsihed my lessons... now got to wait till i pass my FTT.. arh.. then i can book for my TP.. my goodness... so nervous lor.. heehee... but going to do my best for my FTT..
today's driving was cool... revision all the way... go up sloop.... parrell parking... perpendicular parking...went out... did U-turn... a lot of turning... S-course... Crank course... still can remember lar... somemore... alreadi booked a lesson on monday.. but nvm... i can go another revision..
reallie miss my hubby... still got 1 hour then can see him... tink i going to take a rest after checking out for dad how much X-box and PSP cost.. tink dad wanna get for bro on his b;dae... heehee.. cool siah... ass lor... i wan also cannot .. sianz to the max...
today's driving was cool... revision all the way... go up sloop.... parrell parking... perpendicular parking...went out... did U-turn... a lot of turning... S-course... Crank course... still can remember lar... somemore... alreadi booked a lesson on monday.. but nvm... i can go another revision..
reallie miss my hubby... still got 1 hour then can see him... tink i going to take a rest after checking out for dad how much X-box and PSP cost.. tink dad wanna get for bro on his b;dae... heehee.. cool siah... ass lor... i wan also cannot .. sianz to the max...
Friday, July 15, 2005
honestly. being veri honest
i have been veri honest on my blog.... okie.. updating from the last entry.....
hubby wanted me to go test whether i had anot.. so today went to hougang mall guardian.. bought the thing.. then i actually wanted to wait till hubby came then i test.. but i couldn't wait.. before i left home i asked him wad if i had then he juz said take away... okie lor.. i got nothing to say... so i after i bought i quickly went to take the test.. my six sense alreadie tell me won't wan lor... and LUCKY THING IT WAS NEGETIVE.. then i didn't wanna tell hubby i went to take alreadi... so i juz told him that i haven't take.... then when he came he bluff went to toilet.. then stayed for quite sometime.. then when i came out.. i juz looked at him and walked towards the back stiarcase.. gave him a kind of like got look... heehee.. he got so frightened... then when i told him negetive.. he took a deep breathe out lor.. his heart was beating dam hard lor.. hai~... then i tink his balls also shrink.. haha...
i kept hugging him lor.. lucky thing nothing happened.. but he was veri sweet lor.. today we kissed the most times lor.. dam shuang lor... heehee.. then i kept hugging him dun let him go.. tink quarrels are good in one sense.. it kinda brought us a bit closer... feel dam happy.. looking forward to spending more time with him lor.. miss him badly!!!!
hubby wanted me to go test whether i had anot.. so today went to hougang mall guardian.. bought the thing.. then i actually wanted to wait till hubby came then i test.. but i couldn't wait.. before i left home i asked him wad if i had then he juz said take away... okie lor.. i got nothing to say... so i after i bought i quickly went to take the test.. my six sense alreadie tell me won't wan lor... and LUCKY THING IT WAS NEGETIVE.. then i didn't wanna tell hubby i went to take alreadi... so i juz told him that i haven't take.... then when he came he bluff went to toilet.. then stayed for quite sometime.. then when i came out.. i juz looked at him and walked towards the back stiarcase.. gave him a kind of like got look... heehee.. he got so frightened... then when i told him negetive.. he took a deep breathe out lor.. his heart was beating dam hard lor.. hai~... then i tink his balls also shrink.. haha...
i kept hugging him lor.. lucky thing nothing happened.. but he was veri sweet lor.. today we kissed the most times lor.. dam shuang lor... heehee.. then i kept hugging him dun let him go.. tink quarrels are good in one sense.. it kinda brought us a bit closer... feel dam happy.. looking forward to spending more time with him lor.. miss him badly!!!!
this may sound shocking
okie... tis may sound or seem surprising and i am free to write anything i want here... okie...
last nite went over to hubby's place.. then around 10 plus came back.. was suppose to wait for hubby's call... but in then end we nvr go out... juz found out that ah boy knock curb again... haha... then got scolding left right up down side center... poor thing lor..
today hubby suddenly ask me whether i not scared my thing nvr come... then he kept hinting me go check and everything lor.. i not scared until made me scared lor... then he told me after his work meet him then go buy and test see lor... was shocked siah.. suddenly he say until so serious lor..... but i reallie hope nothing happen...
bored to death at home.... nothing to do.. wanna go out bit no where to go lor.. sianz...
last nite went over to hubby's place.. then around 10 plus came back.. was suppose to wait for hubby's call... but in then end we nvr go out... juz found out that ah boy knock curb again... haha... then got scolding left right up down side center... poor thing lor..
today hubby suddenly ask me whether i not scared my thing nvr come... then he kept hinting me go check and everything lor.. i not scared until made me scared lor... then he told me after his work meet him then go buy and test see lor... was shocked siah.. suddenly he say until so serious lor..... but i reallie hope nothing happen...
bored to death at home.... nothing to do.. wanna go out bit no where to go lor.. sianz...
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
eileen's 21st chalet
back from eileen's chalet.. haha.. eileen is drunk... she drank nid.. somemore.. i gave her mix vodka orange... vodka.. calsberg.. and green tea... she drank and got totally drunk lor.. haha... she wanna drunk the rest not so easily lor... haha.. donald drank so much till he dunnoe wad he doing lor.. wai kin and eugene still can make it lar.. then toby came late... alvin was taking care of eileen all the while.. so nice of him lor.. then eileen's fren were juz one side doing their stuff lor.. i tink i ate mainly uncook food lor.. haha.. was not that full.. then watched tv.. bout 12.30.. he called and pester me to go back.. then i reached home bout 1.10.... fast man... took some pics while at the chalet... will post it...
was quarrelling with him the whole while lor.. then i told him.. he dunnoe how to call or tell me that he go meet her liao lor.. i like some toopid person waiting for his call or msg lor.. then after that he tell me he with her... expect me not to get angry meh... then when he called i juz said all my feelings out lor.. then i suddenly break down lor.. but was a while lar.. little it of tears onli.. juz to make him soft.. heehee.. but i was reallie tired of quarelling lor.. it's like it's coming back lor.. nothing is going back to normal.. it will not lor.. until i dunnoe when.. even if tml i were to go to his place.. tink it will be veri cold lor.. i dun even haf the mood to tok to him lor...
y... y muz tis happen.. i am reallie sick and tired of quarelling... i juz wan things to go back per normal lor.. hai~.. life is juz like that... it can nvr be a bed of roses lor... i am still lao 2... i can nvr be lao da!!!!
was quarrelling with him the whole while lor.. then i told him.. he dunnoe how to call or tell me that he go meet her liao lor.. i like some toopid person waiting for his call or msg lor.. then after that he tell me he with her... expect me not to get angry meh... then when he called i juz said all my feelings out lor.. then i suddenly break down lor.. but was a while lar.. little it of tears onli.. juz to make him soft.. heehee.. but i was reallie tired of quarelling lor.. it's like it's coming back lor.. nothing is going back to normal.. it will not lor.. until i dunnoe when.. even if tml i were to go to his place.. tink it will be veri cold lor.. i dun even haf the mood to tok to him lor...
y... y muz tis happen.. i am reallie sick and tired of quarelling... i juz wan things to go back per normal lor.. hai~.. life is juz like that... it can nvr be a bed of roses lor... i am still lao 2... i can nvr be lao da!!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
hope it will get betta...
hai~... had a tok with him today.. actually more to him toking lar... it's my fault and u got no say... sianz... then finally got things straighten out... okei lar.. tot he could come over.. but then he fall asleep liao.. sianz.. alone home... bored... tml he going to meet her somemore.. then i more sianz lor...
now david cannot call or msg me.. hai~.. he will get super angry.. so wad to do.. wan to lie lie all the way mah... but i will try to keep as truthful as i can lor...juz hope everything will go well lar...
had a fun time with ping and mel at orchard.. we went to eat yoshinoya.. then after that went walk walk... then took a lot of pics lor.. heehee... realised mel changed a lot... into a more matured and serious person.. that's good lor.. happy to see her that way..
now david cannot call or msg me.. hai~.. he will get super angry.. so wad to do.. wan to lie lie all the way mah... but i will try to keep as truthful as i can lor...juz hope everything will go well lar...
had a fun time with ping and mel at orchard.. we went to eat yoshinoya.. then after that went walk walk... then took a lot of pics lor.. heehee... realised mel changed a lot... into a more matured and serious person.. that's good lor.. happy to see her that way..
Monday, July 11, 2005
update!!!
been 3 days since i last wrote in.. too many things to update...
first of all... it's okie between us already.... he finally could take in his temper and we forgive each other... didn't go that soft on him.. he want it hard so i played hard with him lor... but he reallie went too overboard lor... that nite he went to meet lao da... then even went he is with lao da.. i still msged him lor... did't give a dam... he say he dun like to be controlled like a DOG... then i told him back that i am not a DOG too... then he asked wad i wan him to do.. then i told him.. i dun wanna tell u want to do... as u said u are not a dog.. so u go tink of wad u should do lor... then he nvr reply back.. heehee....
fri spent the whole day with him... went to his place and slack... thenhe fell asleep at 11 plus... i watched tv and fall asleep at 1 plus... then ah boy called ask us to go out eat... then we went to eat curry rice... i was like tired lor.. then after that we went rounding around MS... boay quey... central mall... then last place... YISHUN DAM!!! haha... always go there wan lor.. sianZ@@!! but then it was lucky that could see ppl do bike stunts... cool siah... then around 4 plus went back.. then went over to his place to slp... got 5 mosquito bites on my leg and 2 on my neck!! irritating lor... then sat whole day slp... then at nite went over his place.. waited for 45mins till he managed to wake up... toopid PIG!!! got 10 mosquito bites while waiting for him to open the door lor... sickening... then he went to meet that person after that... that person also veri sway lor.. his van broke down.. haha... unlucky bitch... then today.. he at home i at home lor.. super sian.... dunnoe wad to do...
first of all... it's okie between us already.... he finally could take in his temper and we forgive each other... didn't go that soft on him.. he want it hard so i played hard with him lor... but he reallie went too overboard lor... that nite he went to meet lao da... then even went he is with lao da.. i still msged him lor... did't give a dam... he say he dun like to be controlled like a DOG... then i told him back that i am not a DOG too... then he asked wad i wan him to do.. then i told him.. i dun wanna tell u want to do... as u said u are not a dog.. so u go tink of wad u should do lor... then he nvr reply back.. heehee....
fri spent the whole day with him... went to his place and slack... thenhe fell asleep at 11 plus... i watched tv and fall asleep at 1 plus... then ah boy called ask us to go out eat... then we went to eat curry rice... i was like tired lor.. then after that we went rounding around MS... boay quey... central mall... then last place... YISHUN DAM!!! haha... always go there wan lor.. sianZ@@!! but then it was lucky that could see ppl do bike stunts... cool siah... then around 4 plus went back.. then went over to his place to slp... got 5 mosquito bites on my leg and 2 on my neck!! irritating lor... then sat whole day slp... then at nite went over his place.. waited for 45mins till he managed to wake up... toopid PIG!!! got 10 mosquito bites while waiting for him to open the door lor... sickening... then he went to meet that person after that... that person also veri sway lor.. his van broke down.. haha... unlucky bitch... then today.. he at home i at home lor.. super sian.... dunnoe wad to do...
Thursday, July 07, 2005
help... all my fault...
everthing seems to be worst.... around 11 something he came with ah boy and adrain... then we went to bendemeer KOPITIAM and eat coz ah boy say he lata going to CHINABLACK... then after eating we went to mount faber... then adrain took out his walkie talkie and ask me play with his frens lor... then tink i played too overboard then he angry....
when we left mount faber he kept scolding me lor.. say i treat him as invicible lor.. hai~.. i reallie didn't mean it lor.. sometimes play can get overboard wan mah.. i seriously didn't mean it lor... but he reallie dam angry lor.. like so long nvr angry then suddenly volcano eruption lor.. hai~.. veri 'fan' now... sianz... still got morning paper lata... dunnoe how to study lor...
i goign to catch a little zzzzz.... or else tml i surely zombie go sch.... hope hubby can go through the PSA interview tml... all the best to him... i reallie love him... but i dun tink he does lor... ask him also no use.. see thorugh his actions noe liao.. wad to do.. i chose this path... and i got to accept it lor.. if he break or i break... i dun tink he will want me back anymore... in fact he also got lao da.. there's nothing to lose.. and if this would happen tink ping will be super happy for me.. heehee.. correct ping.. all the best to myself lata... wake up and memorize.. let my brain and emotions cool down.. after a bath in the morning... i will be fresh and ready for a brand new day...
when we left mount faber he kept scolding me lor.. say i treat him as invicible lor.. hai~.. i reallie didn't mean it lor.. sometimes play can get overboard wan mah.. i seriously didn't mean it lor... but he reallie dam angry lor.. like so long nvr angry then suddenly volcano eruption lor.. hai~.. veri 'fan' now... sianz... still got morning paper lata... dunnoe how to study lor...
i goign to catch a little zzzzz.... or else tml i surely zombie go sch.... hope hubby can go through the PSA interview tml... all the best to him... i reallie love him... but i dun tink he does lor... ask him also no use.. see thorugh his actions noe liao.. wad to do.. i chose this path... and i got to accept it lor.. if he break or i break... i dun tink he will want me back anymore... in fact he also got lao da.. there's nothing to lose.. and if this would happen tink ping will be super happy for me.. heehee.. correct ping.. all the best to myself lata... wake up and memorize.. let my brain and emotions cool down.. after a bath in the morning... i will be fresh and ready for a brand new day...
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
disappointed and sad
seems like it's so fast... one day i am so farking happy.. the next thing.. i feel like i have been thrown down from the sky... it's totally horrible lor.. sickening and painful...
i can tell him that i reach home or go where.. but he can't lor.. he juz can't.. today went for shu mei's wedding.. asked him if he could fetch.. it said 'can dun wan'... i juz said ok... then he asked if i was angry.. i nvr reply back and somemore no call or anything for that long time until i left home... okie nvm.. maybe he tired or something.. i dun keep that to heart.. while on the mrt.. he msged:
- dun drink too much k
- going to my new house.. dunno she coming anot..
- i asked him to haf fun.. then he said no lor
- tot he going with gf.. then he said he going with bro to new house
- she working..
- smile lah.. babe...
- happy abit lar
then when i reach Wedding... he msged:
- babe u reach liao arh..
- told him i got lost and lata taking cab back...
- he asked y?
- scared drunk arh
- scared break ur promise ar
- ENJOY URSELF.. WILL BE MISSING U..
- MUST GUAI GUAI THEN WILL TENG U K..
the whole while during the dinner.. no msg at all lor.. tot he was busy... then when the sinner ending i msged him... but nvr reply... then i called... he put down my phone... in my mind i confirm he going to meet that bitch lor.... the thing is he nvr even bother to tell me!!!! not even a word and expect me to keep tell him where i am everytime... reallie pissed off lor... sickening.. spoil my farkign mood... juz feel like going for a drink and losen up lor... hai~... tink a good nites slp will be better lar... said he will call me back... i juz said up to u.... dun bother waiting for his call.. goign to do my stuff... hair still wet..cannot slp...
FARKING TU LAN!!! FARKING DISAPPOINTED... IT'S ONE OF THOSE FARKING DAYS AGAIN... TOTALLY HEART BROKEN... WAD GIVE AND TAKE... I GAVE IN... BUT NVR TAKE ANYTHING IN RETURN LOR... WAD THE DAM IS GOIGN ON WITH ME.... I AM JUZ PUTTING TOO MUCH INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP... I SHOULDN'T DO THAT LOR!! IT'S TIME TO LESSEN THE LOVE AND CARE FOR HIM... SAID HE MISS ME... AND THIS IS WAD HE IS DOING TO ME!!! WAD THE FARK LOR... LAN JIAO WORDS LOR... GUYS WORDS CANNOT BELIEVE LOR...
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
super farking happy
In a state of happiness... totally on cloud 9!!! after revising MDBS.... about 11 like that met dar... went to meet up with ah boy to fetch diana.. actually dun quite like her lar.. but after toking to her for that few minutes... tink she veri loose type of person... she even have the thought of working at 'hooters' lor... it is such a farking loose pub with plenty of eng mohs lor... totally cannot make it.. then we fetched her back early coz it's like i'm the onli one toking to her lor... sianz.. totally dun clic with ah boy and dar lor... sianZ.. after she left.. we went to yishun dam.. ayumi ppl were there lar.. but parthetic lor... sianz... then they tok about car stuff i juz listen and learn little here and there... then about 2 plus ah boy wanted to go back... me and dar went to 81 classic... heehee... watched the ghost show... eat maggie mee, drink milo.... drink coffee.. then he started to tickle me then i tickle him lor... i struggle until body ache now lor... wah lao.. was like perspiring lor... heheee.. had so much fun.. see him laugh until so happy.. felt so good lorx... feel like another step taken to loving him more lor... juz wish i could hug him all the way and not let go... hai~...
although i cannot expect too much from him.. but reallie little things will make me super happy lor.... LITTLE THINGS... hai~.. love him to the MAXIMUM man!!! juz wan him all to myself..i'm selfish... love is like that lor.. tink i betta go catch some ZZzzzs.. tml got paper... MDBS... then in the nitght goign for Shu Mei's wedding dinner.. toopid sam not going loe.... idiot.... then dar die also dun wan go with me.. hai~... i understand wan lar... hai~.. but wish he can go lor... going to wear that dress lor. so happy... bought a necklace and earings to match lor... juz wanna look a bit nice tml... hope i won't be alone...
although i cannot expect too much from him.. but reallie little things will make me super happy lor.... LITTLE THINGS... hai~.. love him to the MAXIMUM man!!! juz wan him all to myself..i'm selfish... love is like that lor.. tink i betta go catch some ZZzzzs.. tml got paper... MDBS... then in the nitght goign for Shu Mei's wedding dinner.. toopid sam not going loe.... idiot.... then dar die also dun wan go with me.. hai~... i understand wan lar... hai~.. but wish he can go lor... going to wear that dress lor. so happy... bought a necklace and earings to match lor... juz wanna look a bit nice tml... hope i won't be alone...
Sunday, July 03, 2005
tiRed tireD......
have been feeling super tired these few days... fell like taking evey apportunity to slp.. been having not enough slp for 3 days liao.. keep slping at 4am, 5am, 6am.. tis is horrible lor... today slpt until 4pm.. but eyes like still going to close lor..
i wanna study but totally no mood lor..... wanna slp... arh... can't the attitude to study... omgoodness..
hubby is slping.. he say he very tired..... hope he slp pass 9... he going to see 'her' lata mah... if he accompany her today... then he will not be able to accompany me lor.... i monday got exam lei.. dunnoe him lar... hai~...
i wanna study but totally no mood lor..... wanna slp... arh... can't the attitude to study... omgoodness..
hubby is slping.. he say he very tired..... hope he slp pass 9... he going to see 'her' lata mah... if he accompany her today... then he will not be able to accompany me lor.... i monday got exam lei.. dunnoe him lar... hai~...
Saturday, July 02, 2005
sianZz+zz
====_gOt a coLd!!!!!_====
arh.... my cold is killing me lor... the tap keep on running.. non stop lor... from morning sneeze and blow until now still lorx... hai~.. gotto go back and eat the medicine alreadi.. sianz.... but lata got to study lor.. cannot lei... after eat then go study slpy slpy... heehee...
hubby home slping... hai~ sianz half lor.. msg him nvr reply.... tot he going to dl the songs.. hai~... sianz... dunnoe whether lata will get to see him anot... miss him man... miss his hug... hai~...
currently me in WAPD lab... teacher toking to william.. both entertaining each other... everybody toking their own topic lor... heehee... sianz... still got apel3 lata... lucky thing WTS project pass up liao... heehee... happy.. but lata i will still go down and check... whether nelson got hand up anot... scared ar... reallie put in effort to do this...
Friday, July 01, 2005
hahahahahahhahahahahah
laugh until like mad lor!!!!
omgoodness... today reallie had loads of fun laughing and laughing lorX!!!.. haha... hubby went to have his company dinner at ubi there around 6 plus... hai.. then he came to my palce to take flu medicine then left.. sianZZz.. then around 8 plus went to tamp to study.. ger came like 10 lor... lucky got bring my labby.. then i do project.. around 12 plus john came and pass ger data cable.. then he went off and came back.. haha... siao man.. then accompany us lor... fan for us... then transfer some stuff into his phone.. then around 2 something like that.. ger cannot stand the heat and the mosquitoes.. then we went to the coffee shop and eat and drink.. farnie man.. we started videoing each other's 'xi nu ai le' haha.. i laughed till i cried... haha... then we tried to video john do the zhou jie lun's 'piao yi' then he will start by saying ' wu si san er yi.. wo shi lee yu lun' haha.. so farnie lor.. then after that the song will come up... i kept laughing lor.. cannot 'ta han'... lame and farnie.... but then we didn't video a nice one.. so tml then continue.. haha.. then about 3 plus like that then we headed home.. reached home like 1.. taxi fare less then $10 bucks lor.. heehee...
hubby went over to her place... tot he would drop by see me or wad lor.. instead he reallie went to see her.. hai~... i also cannot say anything.. 'lan lan' lor.. see tml how lor.. coz i came back at 4.. so maybe tml he will be angry with me for coming home late... but i was studying lor.. not like i go chiong or wad lor... hai~.. dun wan tink so much.. tml then see how...
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