Just had a 1 hr 40 min and 36 sec conversation with terry… had to force him to pour out everything that was inside him.. but he nanaged to state the 3 issues that were bothering him:
1) the night when I stayed overnight till morning with bee… told him I went drinking with bee, qian li and his gf and 1 couple.. tis incident he said that he had already promised me to forgive and forget…
2) when we were on the bus going to my home, then we were listening to fm on my hp… bee called and I, in the state of panick, took the ear piece away from his ear.
3) When we were ice skating at jurong… jimmy msged “dear, got miss me anot.” Got to explain to him who jimmy is lor… that toopid fellow.. gt me into deep shit…
These were the 3 reasons that he stated that he had been tinking about.. acrually to summarize the conversation, there were other reasons that he brought up:
4) He felt very uneasy when he came over for Christmas. He couldn’t except that my whole family were catholic and actually didn’t want to stay on.
5) His fren caught me going to hougang plaza 4 plus times.. but I told him that I was sleeping.. I kept dening… but I tink it didn’t work
6) He thought about where we were going to haf our wedding… becoz he is Buddhist and I was catholic… but that is a long time issue
7) He didn’t understand why I had to frequent go out in the middle of the night and go out with guy frens to play pool or wad so ever…
8) During the conversation, victor called.. I put him on conference den he go and tok.. toopid fool… but luckily he put down the phone and we went on the conversation…
Besides that, he asked his so called best frens about our problem and his frens told him that if they were in his shoe, they will surely break… but he didn’t do it becoz he felt that I have committed and done a lot for this relationship…
Can say that wad mad tis happened is all my fault… flirty by nature is my greatest weakness.. I cannot say wrong but onli admitting it..wad I have done wrong is always the cause of any break up or misunderstanding in the relationship.. for now I can only wad and pray that he will come to his senses and let us continue on with our life.. but in another way, I must also agree of the negative answer that will come.. which I hope not.. or else I will have a veri big difficulty in answering with my relatives… reallie hard time.. I dun even noe how to face with my cousins lor.. hai~ wad they will say about me and so on…
Everybody makes mistakes and I have made a veri huge mistake.. I will regret for the rest of my life if anything bad will happen… as I wait for the answer in one or two weeks time.. I will try to stay out of hougang plaza where his fren saw me at… dangerous if his frens see me there again… no more pool.. sad… maybe other places when bee gets a bike or his van back lor.. hehe.. in the meantime I will still have to concentrate on my exam lata… hai~.. will update more…
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