it’s a start of a brand new year…2005!!! Heehee… while writing this… I am also playing maple.. at hunting ground… trying to find pan lid.. a kind of shield.. eehee… a lot of ppl are sellin for a veri high price.. but I prefer to find myself.. and get it for free…

came back not long.. was with bee bee.. went to 401 to eat supper den go punggol park walk walk.. actually not walk lr.. we sat at the playground talk talk.. hai~ starting to realize that me and bee getting more and more close lor… nvr see him will fill vri uncomfortable… I also dunnoe why… hai~ die lor.. he even ask me if I will leave dar and go for him.. but at the meantime it is impossible lor.. he also gt gf.. veri difficult to say lor… somemore he so fierce… scared lar.. hehe.. went to play maple.. now back…the truth is that.. I met bee more than I meet dar lor…but I still love dar lar… but not the completely love lar… my heart still has a place for bee lor.. all the while I told myself not to mess up my relationship now.. it was going veri smoothly lr.. but the other while.. I gt to noe bee bee and now I am reallie very close to him.. to the extend that I will even miss him when dar is around lor.. sometimes I just wish to spend a day with him shopping instead of always going out at nite.. but come to tink of it.. I llike him is becoz he gt ride… and some is SUSKI 1000(K1)… veri comfi lor… hai~… tml he selling his bike and getting a mers van sponsored by his company which is totally free lor.. I dunnoe whether my heart will change for him anot.. sad case lei.. women are materistic people lar… who doesn’t want ppl to drive them around in bike.. at this age maybe that is wad I tink lar… when I grow up in the working world… tink can die lei… but I hope I will still be with dar lar…

I have already dreamt of settling down with dar and get married and live the rest of my life with him and have kids lor… but now with beebee…. It is beri difficult for me to even tink lor.. I am scared that wad he said will come true.. like even though the relationship can lasted veri long.. something will happen to make it end… and I am afraid of that.. wait arh…okei back.. haha still can’t get the pan lid.. idiot lor.. okie.. let’s get back to the topic.. hai~.. in a mess lar… when single tis type of thing dun wanna happen… hai~… when attach.. all the rubbish start to appear.. sian half lor… but I also dun wan to see beebee and her gf break… me and beebee 10 yrs apart.. but the thing is I still can click with him and tok all sorts of topic lor… tt’s one thing tt I admire myself… I can tok to the matured crowd easily… with hesitation I can say,,, like for Vincent aka jackal… he also wad. Tt time at sentosa when he gt to noe me.. we also chat like nobody’s business… ping also gt a shock… den.. somemore joe was 33… haha… jackal 27.. beebee 28… so nice…

Oh yah… I forgot.. yesterday went taka with ping to find some birthday bear.. den I suddenly tink of getting for him lor… dunnoe y.. but I had already found dar’s lar… den called him and asked him.. when he saw the bear.. he was shocked… asked him if he liked it.. his face showed that he liked lar.. but I dunnoe whether the hear got say anything bad like childish or anything… I dun mind getting things for ppl lor… just a small gift onli wad hor… nothing wan lah… wait arh…hai~.. still gt nothing from the greewn mushroom… sianz…

Tink tt’s all lar.. will be back to continue of anything happens…