I feel reallie hurt…. Cut reallie deeply in my heart… it is not that I broke up.. but as I am writing tis… I have juz cried my sorrows out… why I cried.. for now I dun tink that I am tinking too much...

Tml is his off day… and I thought he will take the intiative to come and spend time with me.. but no lor.. he went home.. can u believe it.. it’s been like one week since I met and see him and he dosen’t even miss seeing me… msged him the other day to ask him “do u miss me or even miss seeing me?” u noe wad was his answer… “okie lar”!!! wad the fuck!!! It juz shows that he doesn’t care.. or even miss me lor.. I am trying very hard to tink about him coz he is busy… but the thing is tt he doesn’t tink about tis relationship but all bout his work lor…I reallie try to understand his proble,.. but the thing is he doesn’t understand my ‘cu zong’ lor…

On the 29th… I wrote him a letter of how I felt bout tis relationship… but I didn’t give him that time coz I was not in the state of mind that time… I made up my mind oin giving the letter to him.. I am reallie trying veri hard to stay focus in this relationship… but the more he dosen’t spend time with me.. it is very difficult for me to go on lor.. I juz need to cool down and recollect is it myself on whether it is my fault or it’s just my weird imagination… going to play maple… hope tml will be a betta day…

I am going to msg him… I cannot take it anymore!!!

Mar: why u nvr come over to my place today?

Terry: why lei?
(wad a reply lor!!! This type if thing muz ask y wan meh!!!)

Mar: nvr mind… u dun even wan to see me.. or even spend time with me… even tml is ur off.

Terry: what u trying to say? I meeting des to collect my things ma. Weekend then accompany u can, I need to settle my kitchen stuff tml…
(all about work!!! Everytime work!!!)

Mar: I won’t be free on weekend lor… I got exams next week.. I have been trying to understand ur work busy… but u can also try to squeeze ur busy working schedule for me wad…
(hope I am not asking too much..)

Terry: yesterday I wan to meet you but you at bedok. So I went home… ya tml my off then tonight I must go ur house… I also got stuff to settle and do lor.. hai
(lucky I nvr meet him or else in the nite cannot see bee bee.. heex)

Mar: den yesterday u dunnoe how to ask me.. I will do anything for u wan lor… I juz want to spend time with u.. is it very difficult.. I feel veri lost now…
(dunnoe he will say something caring or some nonsence words)

Terry: you gt project ma.. and I work until veri tired le…
(lame.. say wanna come.. den now say tired…)

Mar: I dun wanna say anymore… I juz wanna tell you that I reallie miss you a lot… I can’t slp at times juz tinking of u…u won’t understand how I feel..nvm.. slp early den..
(juz dun wanna quarrel on.. or else.. it will surely turn veri ugly)
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