wad's going on with me... i feel that i am going deeper in love with bee... how?? why?i am doing so many things becoz of him... making him happy... lessening the quarrels... WAD DO I GET IN RETURN??? HIS CARE? HIS CONCERN? HIS LOVE? i doubt so...
after sch... went to ubi to top up my driving balance.. then wanted so badly to meet him... then waited for him to finish work... was sitting at the ubi canteen then i saw jack... chatted with jack... then bee called and said 10 mins he come and fetch... then i walked out to meet jack... after that... when he fetched me... kept asking where i wanted to go.. asked him whether he wanted to eat.. then he said he not hungry.. so nvm lor... then went over his place help him dl songs... treated me very nice lor... laugh and laugh... but then around 8.30 like that he started to wear his jeans... then i tot he wanted to go eat dinner or something... bout 8.45.. he wanted to leave liao... he carried his bag and went to off the kitchen light... at that moment my mood totally changed lor.. knew he was going to meet her! wad the hell lor... i was so happy... tot he can acompany me the whole night... then go meet her nvr say lor... juz tell me he going to collect money.... felt dam shit lor... was super angry... i juz closed the door and directly walked to the lift without waiting for him... he tried to start a conversation.. tinking that nothing happen lor... kept saying y i showing attitude... i juz denied lor... but the real thing is that i am reallie hurt and angry... when reached my place... he kept asking wad's wrong with me.... i juz said it lor... " u go meet her nvr tell me lor... make me happy for nothing.." then i opened the door and left.. when i left i juz felt like crying lor.. was super hurt... he nvr even bothered to tell me in the first place lor!!! that's wad'd making me angry... the second thing is that.. i have not eaten lor... he don't even care... wad for i treat him so good and care for him so much.. ask him whether he has eaten and so on... for wad fuck! omg... wad the hell am i tinking... i reallie dunnoe wad much to say lor.... cried in the toilet... kept feeling that my heart is totally shattered and super pain.... i wan to vent my anger.. i reallie dunnoe how.. maybe these are juz my retribute of how i treated him... i dunnoe... i onli noe my stomach super hungry...
he can go meet her and forget wad has happened. i can juz stay home... starve myself to death and be heartbroken... and cry whenever i tink of it....
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