juZ caMee bAck....

=8**_juz came back_**8=

heehee.. i'm finally home... juz came back... went out with hubby, kelvin,ah boy and jerren today... first went to changi village there.. see 'chicken' then sat down at the coffee shop there drink and hear them tok cork lor... then me and ger tok about sch.. heehe.. they tok about car and motor.... then me and ger 'lan' 'lan' have to listen them tok.. heehee.. but quite interesting.. hubby suddenly so 'on' lor... keep 'suaning' kelvin.. haha... laugh stomach also pain... then bout 3 like that we went east coast.. ah boy got fed up of kelvin, then he went off first.. then me, hubby,ger and kelvin went to the back of east coast there and 'blow wind'.. dam cooling lor.. then somemore got water.. haha.. was like drizzling.. but lucky nvr rain... or else sianZ half lor... then bout 4 plus we left east coast .. kelvin sent ger back.. on the way back.. hubby kept teaching me how to clutch down gear... hear is understand lar.. but then got to try then noe lor.. looking forward for my FTT on thursday.. die lor.. not yet start studying.. tml got to bring the book go study liao.. maybe tml meeting ger to study for term test.. but not confirm lar... dunnoe whether wanna meet hubby anot.. hai~...

totally enjoyed today... got a kiss when i went home!!! *yeh~

super dam happy

======Happy... DaM hapPy======

these few days it's been like ...'wow'... undescribeable lor.. i cannot explain.. hubby reallie made me reallie happy lor... his small moves.. his wide smile.. OMG.. made me feel like i'm on cloud 9 lor.. nothing can stop me from loving this awesome man lor... i have changed from 'LIKE' to 'LOVE' to 'awesome LOVE'.. dunnoe how to explain or describe lor.. after a cloudy rain.. there will surely be a bright sun shinning.. hehee.. 'yu guo qing tian' heehee.. reallie expresses all..

today went over his place a bit late coz wanted to watch finish the 7pm show.. about 8 plus then left to buy chicken chop and coke for hubby.. but he wasn't that angry that i came late, but onli said i could onli stay for a while.. but i didn't mind.. at least i got to hug and kiss him... OMG.... it's reallie made my day and night lor... hehee.. now i am home... dunnoe where he went lar.. nvr reply my msg.. but nvm... i'm still having a hang over... heehee... good one i mean... heehee...

LOVE this feeling man!!! i'm loving it... lalalala.!!!!

nvr see my hubby today...

one day nvr see hubby feel so farnie.... hai~... juz hear his voice and sms is so boring lor... but yesterday hubby got hug me.. so happy.. but i was in a farnie position and felt uncomfortable so i moved to a comfortable sport.. then i also fell asleep.... heehee... he went to collect his ciggi yesterday... collect until go boat quey lor.. somemore until 1 plus lor.. sianZZ.z... hai~... but at least he made the effort to ask me whether i wan him to come over my place.. heeXxx.. then hubby came over!!! hehee... was so dam happy lor... hai~.. but today he with her.. she got off today... didn't even see hubby today lor.. sianZzz...

sometimes i reallie tink whether he got tink of me when he is with her.. hai~... he didn't call at all.. sad.. tink he veri tired lar... dun blame him... at least can get to see him tml.. that's one good thing. but tml also got lec onli... sianz... gonna force myself to go.. gotto get some tips from the lecture... heehee... okeiokei.. gonna catch some ZzzzZzz and dream of my darling hubby...

always tinking of u my darling HUbby !!!!

nvr see my hubby today...

one day nvr see hubby feel so farnie.... hai~... juz hear his voice and sms is so boring lor... but yesterday hubby got hug me.. so happy.. but i was in a farnie position and felt uncomfortable so i moved to a comfortable sport.. then i also fell asleep.... heehee... he went to collect his ciggi yesterday... collect until go boat quey lor.. somemore until 1 plus lor.. sianZZ.z... hai~... but at least he made the effort to ask me whether i wan him to come over my place.. heeXxx.. then hubby came over!!! hehee... was so dam happy lor... hai~.. but today he with her.. she got off today... didn't even see hubby today lor.. sianZzz...

sometimes i reallie tink whether he got tink of me when he is with her.. hai~... he didn't call at all.. sad.. tink he veri tired lar... dun blame him... at least can get to see him tml.. that's one good thing. but tml also got lec onli... sianz... gonna force myself to go.. gotto get some tips from the lecture... heehee... okeiokei.. gonna catch some ZzzzZzz and dream of my darling hubby...

always tinking of u my darling HUbby !!!!

nvr see my hubby today...

one day nvr see hubby feel so farnie.... hai~... juz hear his voice and sms is so boring lor... but yesterday hubby got hug me.. so happy.. but i was in a farnie position and felt uncomfortable so i moved to a comfortable sport.. then i also fell asleep.... heehee... he went to collect his ciggi yesterday... collect until go boat quey lor.. somemore until 1 plus lor.. sianZZ.z... hai~... but at least he made the effort to ask me whether i wan him to come over my place.. heeXxx.. then hubby came over!!! hehee... was so dam happy lor... hai~.. but today he with her.. she got off today... didn't even see hubby today lor.. sianZzz...

sometimes i reallie tink whether he got tink of me when he is with her.. hai~... he didn't call at all.. sad.. tink he veri tired lar... dun blame him... at least can get to see him tml.. that's one good thing. but tml also got lec onli... sianz... gonna force myself to go.. gotto get some tips from the lecture... heehee... okeiokei.. gonna catch some ZzzzZzz and dream of my darling hubby...

always tinking of u my darling HUbby !!!!

happy!!!

(=____HaPpY!!! ShA lA La!!!!!____=)

i am so bloody HAPPY!!! i spent like 12 hrs with dar today!! heehee... met him like bout 7 plus... went over to his place.. then as usual searched for r and b songs for him.. then around 10 plus he suddenly siao wanna buy the dice.. asked ah boy..asked kelvin... haha... but where got shop open until so late wan.. somemore today is saturday lor!!!one thind good is that got kiss got hug... partly perfect lar.. i also cannot ask for more.. hai~... hope everything can stay this way!!! toopid.. dunnoe wad he tinking also lor.. but for one thing i noe that he was super HAPPY... made me so HAPPY bitch called then all sunk down the drain lor.. sickening.. dun give a dam... then bout 11 plus like that we went down... he went to change his headlight to a brighter bulb.. haha then ah boy came... his car onli a small tiny scratch lor... then he wan also... but when that touch up.. everyone scold him lor.. so little thing also wanna make a big fuss about it.. he say he a "perfectionist"... haha.. lame lor... then after that ah boy went to fetch pamela at yishun... then dar and i waited at yio chu kang MRT for them to come.. then we headed to hougang ave 3 S11 to eat.. i didn't eat.. pamela was a veri nice ger.. she liked ah boy a lot and finally she could meet him on her b'dae... she was like super dam HAPPY lor.. then not long kelvin came down.. he sat for a while then we headed to yishun dam.. ah boy's idea... then we went there and kelvin blast his sound system lor.. played "piao yi"... wow.. everyone was like looking at us lor.. haha... superb man!!! then we kept changing cd to play.. blast loud loud man.. after that then we went back.. went over to dar's place to watch unleashed.. but watch half way,we both fell aslp.. haha.. when i woke up it was alreadi 7.. then i went home.. coz today got driving lesson at 4.25.. still got enough time to slp.. reallie enjoyed today ALOT!!! .. HAPPY and ENJOYABLE!!

LOVE U LOADS LOADS HUBBY!!!!

it's a sat morning...

wad a boring SAT... slept till like 2 plus... coz i had a horrible and most scary dream... i dreamt that i got cancer... omgoodness... then i reallie cried... tears were actually rolling out of my eyes.... watch too much of the channel 8 show 7pm and 9pm wan.. haha...

hope lata can go out with dar.. he wanna go get his dice.. but nvr say wad time... he go home surely slp wan lei... somemore... i got to do my write up for WAPD and apple3.. got to hand in on mon...

got to do some planning....

• go wash up
• go down and eat
• do apple3 service reflection
• do WAPD write up..
• hope can finish early so that i can meet dar...

okie.. tt's the plan.. and i am off...

mE acTiNg CutE!!! 

sianZ....

i have been such a good girl these few days.. OMGOODNESS... so scary lor... beoming a new MARILYN...so not me. i haf been going home after sch... studying.. doing project.. wad the freak..

but today is a realliE dam boring day...hai~ dar with gf today... he took 2 days off... then tml i no sch but juz driving in the morning... then maybe will be spending the day with him.. also dunnoe wad we will be doing... the most boring thing will be staying home lor... hai~.... dunnoe wad time he will then call me... reallie miss his voice lor.. i also dun dare to call him or msg him.. hai~.. so juz wait lor...

going to do some studies today.. while waiting for dar's call... MISSING U BADLY HUBBY!!!

pissed off

yesterday was freaking pissed off lor... hai~.. tink i was showing too much attitude yesterday to dar lor... hai~... 8 plus he wore his jeans.. my face totally changed lor... then called ping... called maddy... they all not free to go eat... hai~... when we were downstairs.. i juz told him that i wanted to walk home.. then i walked away... he kept calling me back but i juz ignore him lor... he called and msged me but i nvr "hue" him.... wad the fook lor... was feeling super"pek chek" lor... hai~....

then went home and cried... super sad.... hai~... now... like dun feel like callng and tok to him.. nothing to tok about.. nothing to msg lor... sian lor... lata i go bugis also go alone... sianz.... he also nvr say go his place or anything... so i presumed that he was going to meet "HER"... but he juz said he nvr say anything... so okie lor... let's see wad he will do lata lor....

lesson is super sianz.... nothing to do.. my group all guys.. then they do the work lor... sianz to the MAX!!!!!!

sIanzz...

bored... waiting for dar to call me but it's now so late so i dun tink he will be calling... tink he angry with me coz i came back so late.. actually told him 12... but then me and maddy toked till 11 plus lor.. didn't see the time...then he was angry lor.... hai~... but hope tml okie lar.. or else will be sianz lor... tml he also nvr work... dun wanna stay home and rot lor...

oh yah.. bought 2 dangling earrings juz now... it''s like one side long........... one side short... cool siah.. 3 for $10... then maddy bought one short green earring...

okeiokei... going to slp... niteZzz

te van died yesterday!!!

omgoodness... the van died yesterday while we were at west coast with adrain and jerren... had a fun time playing in the sand with jerren while toking bout her stuff.. then dar and adrain sat at mac there and tok about adrain's work stuff.... we tok and played till like 4am... then when dar wanted to start the ignition... the van died... couldn't start.. lucky thing some malay ppl got jumper cable... then they connect adrain's car batt to dar's van batt.... lucky thing the van can start.. went home like 6am... heehee... then today.. i woke up at 4.. i knocked out.. so many calls nvr answer.... heehee...

okeiokei.. dar coming over.. heehe.. nobody at home... grandmother went shopping.. then mother and brother went to uncle's place... okeiokei... wanna go down and grab something to chew...

wet day

**>...''...'''*......>> wad a wet day.........<<......*"'..."...<**

it's a wet day today... when reaching sch... it started to pour... hai~... had a fun time at home yesterday... dar came over to slp... finely got live boster to hug.. so confortable lor.. i slept reallie soundly...

around 12 like that.. went to 7-11 there and met ah xiong.. i finally got my 256MB!!! hahha... was so excited... can dl loads of song now!!!. then after that dar came to 7-11 to fetch me to go join ah boy and his frens for supper... then after supper, we headed down to yishun dam again... sianZZzzz... thurs where got ppl wan... boring lor... nothing to see wan... when we were there i was in my own word and they were in their world toking bout EVO 8 and wadeva car lor... i listen wad i understand i juz laugh lor.. dun understand juz shut up and stare into space lor... haha... then around 2 like that i got reallie bored.. juz nice dar wanted to go back and slp... so he came over to my place... we chat for a while then both knock out and went straight into dream land... was suppose to wake up at 5.30... i heard the alarm but i offed it and went back to slp... heehee... then 7.30 like that i woke up.. then i quickly woke him up... coz he didn't like to face my mother... she also dam irritating lor... so i quickly asked him to leave.. then after he went back.. i wanted to slp but then the tot of dling new stuff into my hp juz kept me awake... so while dling the songs... i slept and woke up to check.. heehee... then around 10 then i fully woke up for lesson... hai~...

now i am in sch lab.. boring myself to death.. was suppose to accompany eileen... but then that toopid siew keat... ask me go out.. sickening ass hole lor...somemore... hp gonna no batt liao... sianz half....

feel like slping... so cold and comfi here... hehee

driving was great

^"^_==== Driving was FANTASTIC today!!!!====_^"^

omg.. driving was a blast today... moving off was great and didn't stall lor!!! suang man!!! now i have confidence in driving lor.. did U-turn and 3-point turn.. all went super well lor.. yah!!! hehee... felt do good lor.. came out of the car smiling... heehee... now got to go through another tuff one.. parking.. scared siah.. confirm i will hitting the poles as i park lor... that one surely need loads of prac man.. heehee..

today i bloody good girl lor... after driving lesson came home.. was suppose to go bugis to take my product money.. then wang not working.. so maybe tml then take lor.. hai~.. but had real great fun... looking forward for the next lesson!!!

happy sha la la

====i am happy... y... becoz dar quarrel with her today!!====

haha... after sch went to meet jerren at pavilion for dinner.. dar wanted to meet dar to show her his purple phone and theme.. heehee.. then he wanted to trick me he not coming liao.. but i not toopid lor.. haha.. i purposely bluff him that i was going back alreadi.. then he shock and told me that he reach liao.. haha...dam cute lor he.. keep laughing and smiling... felt so great lor... he didn't want to eat so i ate alone.. jerren and tiff eat finsih liao.. then after a while we left.... went back to his palce then i help him to transfer his hp stuff to his comp.. like back up like that.. after that adrain came... he wanted to ask dar to help him dl themes and songs.. the shocking and most scary thing happen... it was that... dar's bro came back lor.. scary man.. i look at his face i scared lor... but we stayed onli for a while lar.. then lata we left.. felt so uncomfortable the bro around lor...

then we went to 401.. dar and adrain ate dinner while i ate french fries... then dar and i kept swanning adrian coz he dunnoe bout hp stuff and comp stuff.. haha.. farnie lor... then that bitch started to call dar and dar wanted to go back fast.. he lies to her that he left his phone in the car.. she kept asking whether he was lying.. then dar got a little frustrated... half way through the journey.. the kept quiet... but then i comforted him not to be angry... but he seems a right... then around 12 like that i reached home... tot can meet him lata on again... but then i tink he tied .. so hai~.. tink i should go play some maple then go slp.. tml gt driving prac at 10.20..

love u to the max dar.... i reallie had loads of fun today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sianz... hot and humid!!! perspiring!!!

omg... today's weather is bloody hot lor... cannot stop perspiring... at the same time i am sad... super sad.. it's the third day that i cannot meet dar lor... he going to see her becoz got some celebration at her place that he needs to go to... saddening... super hurt lor... i can't live without seeing for 1 day be it now 3 days lor... dunnoe whether he feels the same way to.. he clams that calling me and toking to me is a form of meet... but i dun see it that way lor... i dun mind seeing him for an hour or even half an hour.. juz spending that little time and effort to meet... i dun mid lor... at least i noe he makes the effort... but until now.. no word or nothing from him lor... he juz remaining as it is and then lata go meet her after his work... wad the hell lor... he doesn't miss me lor...

but the farnie thing is that today he suddenly call me 'BABE' and i got shock... he said to trust him.. and he loves me.. farnie lor.. a person like him say this the word 'BABE'.. farnie lar... like not him lor... hahahaha....

it's onli the afternoon... so see ad he going to do lata... hope for the best!!!

loved watching Mr and Mrs Smith

had a super cool time today!! went to watch 'Mr&Mrs Smith' with ping and maddy... omg... it's been long since i went out with ping and maddy lor.. cool siah.. okeiokei.. then we bought mac into the cinema.. haha.. was happily eating french fries and mc chicken while watching the commercials.. heehee.... the show was farnie and cool... interesting how a couple can hind their identites between themselves for 5 or 6 yrs.. until when they were surpose to kill each other.. then they found that they love each other...heehee

okie the next thing practically spoilt my mood... bee was complaining about some application he dled and cannot delete... then couldn't tink a solution at that moment of time when he asked, so i told him to leave it there first... then after tht movie.. i tot of reformatting the memory card.. but b4 tt transfer his songs and pic and contacts to his com first... then he started to flar up and got angry.. i got reallie pissed off also... then while walking out of PS.. i asked him if he was going to meet her tml... then he said tml she off lei...then i said to him back.. u meeting her juz say yes.. before that i asked him a couple of times alreadie.. and then went ping, maddy and i went out of PS.. i asked him again if he was going to meet her tml.. and he said yes.. i nearly wanted to cry.. i reallie tot that he will say try to meet me or wad lor.. at that point i reallie felt like putting down the phone and sit one corner and cry my heart out lor... i had no mood to tok to him so i said i wanted to tok to ping and asked him to go meet her... then after a while he told me to go tok to ping.. i juz said okie and put down the phone... last week he met her totally much more than meeting me lor.. all the long is that he spent more time with me... he met her on mon..wed..fri..sun and today!!! wad the hell lor... quality time is not spent like that lor... fell reallie miserable.. and somemore.. he hasn't called!!! juz feel like falling into a super deep slp and dun hear the phone if he calls.... hai~.. tink i should juz slp and forget bout it.. things will be betta tml i hope..!!!

nitez.. sweet dreamzZZzzzz.....

many.things.happened

nothing is doing let bee tok to me.. then out of the blue.. bee kept asking me to forget bout the past so that we could be together.. he held my hand and didn't wanna let go.. then my heart went totally soft.. and i left and followed him.. he promised to make me happy and not quarrel.. when we were goign back to his place.. he suddenly treated so nice... hugged me.. kissed me.. couldn't let me go lor... was touched at that moment...

then sat was sweet but then at nite he felt asleep and i called dixon to eat coz i was reallie veri hungry... gastric was super pain.. didn't have the strength to quarrel.. then in the night we went to yishun dam with his frens.. then around 3 plus like that he came over for a while and then bout 6 he went home...
any betta bout me and bee... hai~.. quarrelled veri badly on thurs and i even thought of breaking up with him.. when on the way back home.. tot veri clearly and decided to meet dixon for dinner.. then before i walked to hougang plaza... i msged bee that we go separate ways.. but after bout an hour or so he woke up and msged for forgiveness and that we start over again... then he called 20 over times but i nvr answered.. but onli answered his msges.. he asked where i wasbut i juz said i was outside.. then he asked whether i was with dixon and i said yes.. then all of a sudden, in the midst of our msges he suddenly appeared at kopitiam.. i was shocked and didn't noe wad to do.. then he asked dixon if he could to to e.. toopid dixon juz left and
then today.. woke up at around 10.. then slept till 1... then bout 3 went to his place... after he told me that at nite he was going to meet his gf.. my face and mood changed.. but then he tried to make me happy... then his gf called and i went to the kitchen i stare outside... didn't want to hear their conversation.. then when i came back... he told me to look at my hp.. then suddenly i saw a spongebox square pants theme on my hp.. was so happy and gave him a kiss... but then when he was toking to her again.. he took out my wallet and say the neoprint og me an dixon and got angry... hai~ then he kinda cold.. went lavendar he walked in front and i walked at the back.. at bugis he also did the same... then we started to tok things out at bugis village... but after a while we started to carry on toking...

now i juz wish everthing can be back... without dixon.. everything will be fine... hai~...

(v) hubby.. I LOVE YOU!!!(v)

....apPle and LeMoN.... 

hubby daOzzZ worX!! 

(v)_me and my hubby_(v) 

was angry.....

i betta start to write bigger font words then can read... sometimes too small even i myself also cannot read.. heehee...

okie.. i am suppose to be angry... that heartless person is with that bitch at her place...doing wad i dun bother... he can dun call or dun msg.. i dun wanna bother... gotto stop hurting myself for nothing... y make myself so depressed and angry... be happy with my life and enjoy the love and care i am getting...

bee such an ass lor... everything i do is for him but i am not getting anything in return.. dun feel the care or concern or love from him... kept asking him whether he wanna meet me or have dinner together.. he will surely say see first... i dun get any definate answer from him wan.. it's like using one hand to clap the air... getting reallie irritated with that answer he has been giving me....

tink i should try to stay a bit apart from him.. i cannot let myself fall too deep in love with him... i dun wanna get too hurt if one day something horrible happens.. i am not afraid of losing him.. i should not give him the idea that i love him a lot and cannot leave him.. make his ego big onli... and from tml onwards.. i will not ask him whether he wants to meet me for dinner or so forth... see whether he wants to ask for himself...

tml's plan is to meet dixon after sch... maybe go bugis to retrieve my pencil, eraser and pen knife... heehee.. and see whether my product money come already anot.. heehee...

had loads of dun with ping today at changi airport mac.... not yet started eating my chocolates.. heehee.. tml i will eat..

my ai ai not home yet... called him twice say going home.. heehe.. dunnoe y i keep forcing him to go back... reallie dun like he hanging out too late with small di di's lar... waste money onli lor... say he will be back by 12.30 latest 12.35...see how lor... ah yah... angry for wad....hai~....

got driving lesson tml... excited siah.. hehee...

going to slp... nitez ppl

kIndA boreD..

being goodie girl today.. i was home early lor... 2 plus reach home liao... hai~... wad to do.. be good girl first... put myself in his good shoes.. that's the first thing i should do... hai~...

juz took off my black paint on my nails... then painted it transparent glitter... heehee... got nothing to do.. bored to death... hai~... dunnoe whether dar meeting me today anot.. somemore that bitch is off today... scared he will go see her... hai~.. dunnoe lar see how lor.. he kept saying see how lor.. see how lor.. always gimmie half half answer.. boring lor....

now wasting my time... gonna try to change my blog skin.. heehee... try lar.. dunnoe can anot... hehee

crying mood.....

wad's going on with me... i feel that i am going deeper in love with bee... how?? why?i am doing so many things becoz of him... making him happy... lessening the quarrels... WAD DO I GET IN RETURN??? HIS CARE? HIS CONCERN? HIS LOVE? i doubt so...

after sch... went to ubi to top up my driving balance.. then wanted so badly to meet him... then waited for him to finish work... was sitting at the ubi canteen then i saw jack... chatted with jack... then bee called and said 10 mins he come and fetch... then i walked out to meet jack... after that... when he fetched me... kept asking where i wanted to go.. asked him whether he wanted to eat.. then he said he not hungry.. so nvm lor... then went over his place help him dl songs... treated me very nice lor... laugh and laugh... but then around 8.30 like that he started to wear his jeans... then i tot he wanted to go eat dinner or something... bout 8.45.. he wanted to leave liao... he carried his bag and went to off the kitchen light... at that moment my mood totally changed lor.. knew he was going to meet her! wad the hell lor... i was so happy... tot he can acompany me the whole night... then go meet her nvr say lor... juz tell me he going to collect money.... felt dam shit lor... was super angry... i juz closed the door and directly walked to the lift without waiting for him... he tried to start a conversation.. tinking that nothing happen lor... kept saying y i showing attitude... i juz denied lor... but the real thing is that i am reallie hurt and angry... when reached my place... he kept asking wad's wrong with me.... i juz said it lor... " u go meet her nvr tell me lor... make me happy for nothing.." then i opened the door and left.. when i left i juz felt like crying lor.. was super hurt... he nvr even bothered to tell me in the first place lor!!! that's wad'd making me angry... the second thing is that.. i have not eaten lor... he don't even care... wad for i treat him so good and care for him so much.. ask him whether he has eaten and so on... for wad fuck! omg... wad the hell am i tinking... i reallie dunnoe wad much to say lor.... cried in the toilet... kept feeling that my heart is totally shattered and super pain.... i wan to vent my anger.. i reallie dunnoe how.. maybe these are juz my retribute of how i treated him... i dunnoe... i onli noe my stomach super hungry...

he can go meet her and forget wad has happened. i can juz stay home... starve myself to death and be heartbroken... and cry whenever i tink of it....