Beeen Awwaay Loonnggg.....

I'm Back...

Plenty of things happen and i have no time to update.. Dun wanna write the whole story down.. It will take ages!! Heehee.. Think i can write a story book about the stuff that happened. Let me just state the main points and summarize..

1) I broke up with Ben
2) I tink i'm single and not avaliable
3) I'm contacting back with ah bee, with him again seems diff again.. I'll explain wad i mean..
4) Doing full time admin now at aljunid

I'll add in more when i tink about it..

1) Why a break up all will ask.. Firstly i can't stand his pride.. HE tinks too much on how ppl tink of then tinking about himself. 1 month his been graduated from ITE and for 1 month, he has not even found a full time job. And all he can say is "I'll find", "Not that i dun wanna find, it's because i got record and i scared how ppl look at me when they noe about it".. See.. What toopid excuses he gives.. It's not like he is going up to managerial position.. They are jobs which dun even care whether u have a record or not.. Secondly i HATE ppl to imflict pain on themselves.. This point when the first time we broke, he cut his wrist.. I was hurt pain and i warned him not to do it again.. But the second time he did it again.. and this time he did it in front of me.. which totally disgust me instead of me feeling hurt for him. I just let me do wadeva he wants to do.. It just makes me even more hate him or dun feel like seeing him. He keeps waiting to explain but there's nothing to explain.. It takes 2 hands to clap.. which i believe. I dun even have feelings for him anymore so why should i continue to try to go back. It will just hurt the other person more.. He has troubled all his friends.. Worrying his sister... Such a useless guy who depends on girls to live.. Not independent.. Hasn't woken up to reallity and still living in his gangster world.. It's not the type of person i'm looking for.. He dosen't even gimmie the confidence and security that every bf should give.. Keeps saying but not doing things.. He has been stalking me, waiting outside my place.. It makes me more hate him and i dun even tink of giving another chance.. No way..

2) & 3)....
Why i say i'm single but unavaliable.. I've been with ah bee.. and it seems that he is treating me very nice and giving in to me when there are problems.. Haha.. I dare not think too much where this will go and dare not tink of whether we will stay long or wad so ever.. He has been saying that he wants to spend every time with me.. haha... But he is doing what he said lr.. Then i just take a step at a time lr.. Dun wanna tink too much about it... His been giving me that closeness again.. Hai.. We know each other for like 2 years coming 3... My goodness... Time seems to fly by freeking fast.. But it has been on and off lr.. Hai.. Just see how it goes lr..

4)..
Changed job... I am now doing admin work now.. Filing, filling up on application, buying drink, sourcing.. pratically everything.. Haha... Been very fun.. sometimes i can do nothign and serve net the whole day.. Sometimes i'm busy till i dun even have time to msg.. But i enjoy.. that's the important thing...

okie.. that's all.. my boss has been seeing and saying me.. so that's all for now

i'm finally 21

I'm 21 and i'm happy about it..

Firstly i wanna thank my dearest Wei Ping for helping me out on sun (4.02.07). Without her help all things cannot be put in place.. Also to my sweethearts.. Sarah, ah boo(Dave) and Paddy Ma... Wanna thank my darling dar who helped me throughout the whole event.. Love him loads...Am very glad that they took time to come and celebrate this special event for me..And also all those who took the time to come and brought all the interesting and touching presents for me.. I'm reallie greatful that god gave me such loving and caring friends..

it's all because of the haze

It's all becoz of the haze!!

Now i'm suffering from runy nose and cough... Bloody Hell... Feel like my nose run to India then came back... Can't eat much and my sneezing can't stop... No matter wad medicine i take is of no use.. I just can't stop sneezing... Help!!! Isn't there any remedy to this... Tink i muz wear an oxygen mask wherever i go.. Arh...

Depavali is coming and i can't wait to go to sarah's place to eat!!! HeeHee...

Hope my nose will recover soon....

pics of my sch fren..

Val and Ash

Wad the heck is Val doing???

Me and Ash

Kiss.. Hugs...

driver day

was driver today.. didn't have much fun thou...

went to colour my hair for FREE today... chocolate base with redish orange highlight.. The highlight ain't that obvious.. But i tink the base colour is nice.. My mother even say it looked like a more decent colour.. Haha.. Not that i always dye my hair bright red.. Haha...

After that rushed home to have dinner then went to "son's" fren chalet.. I dun even noe the person.. Haha.... Half way through mahjong, Jerren called and said that David was drunk. So we went down to resuce him.. Dar drove David back and i followed.. After bringing David back, i headed to BQ, while dar went to fetch his frens.. Went to Acoustic but it ws dam boring.. Me, Jerren and son played all sorts of games from cards to dice. Then after that we headed to Mustafa to get some stuff... Me and Jerren were shopping while dar and son were bored and hungry sitting at one side rushing us to go off... After shopping, i sent Jerren home while dar fetched son to the chalet first. Met him at the chalet, then we headed home.. I'm tired.. and didn't enjoy myself.. Sianz!! Hai..

But i still like my new hair colour.. HeeHee...!!!!

2nd day of chionging

After sch.. Was suppose to meet Ping at 7pm but she was late.. Caught up with work.. So i stayed at "Twister" to kill time.. Was suppose to get a present for ping but i couldn't find anything that i feel like getting for her.. So i decided to treat her sushi as her birthday gift.. We took 14 normal plates and 2 abnormal plates!! Hahaha... Total was like 20 bucks plus.. Super cheap for 2 person... Enjoyed myself totally with ping.. We laughed and giggled and played like the whole place was ours.. Took pics.. Love her to bits!!!


Ping and Me...

Me and My darling apple.. (Chopsticks can be good props)

Went to boat quey "Sassy Bar" today.. Boon Teck was there like 9.30pm with his frens.. I went there like 12.30.. Jerren came like 1.30.. Haha... All the latecomers... Didn't drink much as i was driving.. Sad... Juz took like 1/2 a cup...
Now home... He doesn't wanna bath so i'm slping on the floor.. Haha..

Menes are here to visit me.. Wad the fook lor.. But it's onli a little.. Haha.. I'm abnormal that's for sure... Attitude is kinda farnie also.. I'm angry but then i dun show it out.. Beats me!! I also dunnoe y.. That's y i'm slping on the floor.. instead of forcing him to bath.. Hee... Totally farnie..

His like tosing and turning in bed.. But i'm so not going to slp by his side.. Haha...

chionging days...

Yest went over to sarah's place and had loads of fun... Playing with padma's hair.. I curled her hair with rolls and hair spray while sarah did padma's make up.. The after effect was nice.. HeeHee... Totally satisfied with my work!! HaHa.. Miss my babes... Bought each of us an anklet with 3 diamonds.. Each diamond represent each of us... Always together!!! Never apart!!!

today was a boring day.. Ash introduced me and some of my classmates to some job. Until when we reached raffles then she told us that it was some MLM company called "HerbelLife"... Wanted to kill her on the spot. But i saved the killing spree and went to her a lady Jasmine, talk... She made it so convincing but i'm not falling for her.. Haha... Wanted to kill Ash for bringing us there...

After that went when my son and him to Boat Quey to have dinner... Ate some Thai food.. It was not bad... Then after dinner we headed to TPY to meet up with the rest of his ppl... Had a talk until his fren came, after which we headed to serangoon garden "bulldog", a ktv pub, to meet up with some other frens... Left 2 plus...

Tml will be going "Sassy Bar" at boat quey with boon teck.. HeehHee... Then on sat going Hard Rock Cafe with my son... Chionging Days!!! Hai.. I'll still have to work on sat and sun... Saddening.. No choice... Got to earn the extra bucks...

haven't been writing for a seriously long time

Okie Okie.. Everyone is coomplaining that i haven't been blogging.. So soorie bout it..

Been totally busy with him and sch and work and going out... My goodness.. Totally lost track of date and time...

We are already in our 3rd month... Still sticking like glue... Mon- Thurs he will be at my place then somtimes Fri & Sat i will bung out at his place.. Been going to boat quey (acoustic , bumble bee)... Live impact... DEVILS!!! Totally drinking like crazy... Starting to noe more indept of him and also his family and relatives... Happy bout that... It;s like we have been together for a long time.. Hee...

Sch has been having with another new intake... I passed my previous 2 modules.. Had 66 for Marketing and 53 for Accountings... Was shocking that i could pass Accounting.. I tot i would fail.. Miracle.. total miracle... Now in my 3rd module.. Quality and Control Management.. Lecturer sucks... totally hate him... And from this module onwards, all our exams will be closed book... Sad cause... Now passing exams will be a more difficult task... Got to noe more new SINGAPOREAN classmates... They are totally cool... Ashvin(Evil Twin Sister) and Valerie (son)... Me and Ashvin gave names to some of our classmatees.. Like Ms 60s.. Chan yok (In korean, meaning slut)... but that's juz joking.. But one thing are the foreigners.. We have Nepalise, Thai, Indians, Korean.. totally mixed like rojak.. And some are reallie hard to group along with.. They don't understand and all they do is to say yes... HaHaHa... Wonder how they will pass...

Work has been more and more boring... But reallie touched that he comes down and accompanies me while i am working... Besides that he will fetch me back from work... Boss has been losing money for the past 2 weeks due to the shortage of air purifiers.. But hope sales will slowly boost up...

Will update new pics soon... Oh yAh.. I cut my hair at "De Elements" at TPY... the stylist there sucks.. Rude and aren't that friendly.. Their lady boss Chen Li Pin.. Is totally super stuck up... She is totally not friendly....

Went to catch a movie with Boon Teck, Guo Jing, Kent, My bf and me.. Went Cini to catch "Little Man".. The show is totally awesome and farnie.. Couldn't stop laughing and every single toopid thing Little Man does.. Good show to reccommed to ppl... Then went to Boat Quey as there was some matters to handle..

Now home.. trying to slp.. Got to accompany jerren to warehouse and help out as well as to drink wine!!! Hee!!! Hee!!!

thanks for all those who cared

Everything is settled... Had a huge quarrell at first ut then he told me that he deleted the videos already so everyting is fine.. Back to normal.. A burden taken off my shoulder... And it was reallie a huge burden.. I'm glad that everyhting is okie already..

Went to his place after ACOUSTIC.. Nothing happen... Was too tired... Then we woke up in the afternoon.. He went to work and i went home.. But lata on we are going to meet.. Got "jia tok".. at Clementi.. So he going to bring not onli me but us.. hehe..

Got to pass up report on monday but my partner dosen't seem to be doing anything and i am also doing nothing about it...

saw things that i shouldn't see

Just came back from jb..

Did my new set of nail art today.. it's PINK... Hee... kinda like the colour and the design.. One and onli design..

After finishing my stuff.. I went down to Braddell to meet him and his kids.. They had something to tok about.. Went there to accompany him for a while cause the whole of yest i didn't meet him.. Actually the main thing i wanna say is that i was looking through his phone and i saw things which i shouldn't see.. Pics are okie with me that he took with his ex.. But videos.. That's a big NO NO!! I was stunned, shocked, sad, confused.. Wadeva the feeling was i was angry for that spilt minute while watching it.. I tot to myself, y should i be angry with this type of things when it's already the past.. Hai~.. Lost and feel like breaking down... I even asked him y he still kept the videos in his phone.. He just asked y?.. I'm like thinking... Come on... That poly ger's videos already rocked the country.. U wanna be the second one.. Then he asked me where i keep my stuff.. I juz told him back.. I don't video this type of stuff down, and he kept quiet...

For the whole journey to JB, my mind was rewinding the videos over and over again.. It just wouldn't stop... Told him to slp early, he didn't want... Then when i went to bath, he sent me a msg..

He: Dear dear.. i off my comp liao.. Actually i was thinking about just now.. cause i know surely got problem lor.. Cause i see your face change liao.. Since just now u say the thing still in ur mind liao.. I also dunnoe what to do.. Haiz.. Good Nite..

Me: Anything u just say, No need to scared wan lr.. Like how i opened and tol u was i saw.. The past is already the past.. Who u fucked or suck is not my business.. But wad's my business is nobody can touch or suck except me...I dun wanna see those videos in ur phone lr.. U wanna keep for memories can.. I burn a dics and u keep it.. Most importantly i dun wan anything to be like the poly ger's video to be passed around lr.. U dunnoe wad will happen when ppl see it.. i will nt let this type of small thing obstruct our relationship lr.. I Love u and onli u.. Hope u won't disappoint me.. Muackzz.. Nitezz.. (9 msges)

I hope wad i told him will get into his brain and also heart.. I am being very open bout the matter.. I dunn wan to be a small gas and quarrel with every small little thing that gets into our way.. As for now, the thing is still bothering me.. I hope that i can just forget bout it and throw it away... I reallie miss him.. I dunnoe y.. Hai~... Can love be that strong to overwrite the things that i saw.. I reallie hope so...

Sat will be going to Sentosa... Hope i can wake up early to catch the bright sun...

pics

home early today..

was suppose to go see fireworks at 9pm.. but then something cropped up and he had to go "jiak tok".. with gary they all.. sianz half lorx..

so planning to go see the doggies... tink i am not taking the dog.. Hai.. I have no time to take care of her.. Hai.. Tink i shall get my own when i get married or settle down.. I tink having a dog can teach a person what responsibility is.. Reallie sad that my parents dunnoe bout it... Inside of tinking that it is noisy or troublesome to take care... Y dun they tink of the love and care that the family can actually cultivate.. To be together like one.. Hai~.. tT;s wad i tink...

Went to seee the doggies.. They are so cute and fragile.. Like babies.. My goodness.. So cute!!! But too bad.. i've decided to not to have... I shall wait...

Went to boat quey to have fried rice.. Must tink i'm mad.. It's actually becoz all the pubs were packed... So we just hopped from ACOUSTIC to BUMBLE BEE.. Boring...

Going to post some picx..


Together Forever since 18.06.06

New Hair style


Taken at bus stop..

Something that Jerren drew for us..

Muackzz.... Love Yah!!!

happy

juz gt back frm jb.. Jerren and David finally went steady... Hahaha.. at least she has company nw..

It's been exciting, fun, scary.. this 1 month plus with him... I already got so called close to his frens, fren's gf.. Now his on the wanted list.. so going out maybe sometimes rather sccary.. It's like anything can happen.. Juz pray and hope nothing does... One thing good bout him is that he is nt the type of guy who just go with u for free sex.. Even though we slp in the same bed, we juz cuddle each other to slp.. He doesn't snore..That's wad i like... Hope thinks won't end up till i have to wait for him to come out from jail or something... I don't want to worry.. Sometimes worrying too much will have side effects.. Heeheehee..

Juz started my new subject... Account and Finance... Headache.. scared that there will be a lot of maths or formulae that i have to now or remember... Juz finished my Marketing exam.. Not enough time for me to finish 5 qns in 2 hrs and all the answers must be a page and a half long...

Got many pics to post.. But it's all in my hp... Guess i got to post some other day... Still waiting for my K800i to come... Arh!!! Can't wait to use it..

Maybe i'll be getting a dog.. A mix breed golden retriever.. 2 months plus.. Female.. But the time is i'm not always at home.. Then it's like taking care of a baby.. Come to tink of it.. I can't take care of myself.. Where will i have the time to take care of her.. Hai.. Maybe i can leave it to my bro to play.. Kinda got to discuss with my parents first..

juz posting pic

Just feel like posting this pic... I edited it from his N70.... Designed in and from a N70... Cool siah!!! Love him and Loke it like crazy... We both have it on our phone's background....


Love Ben Loads!!!!

exams are like next week.. arh...

i can't believe that it's coming a month and i'm having my exam next monday!!! It's super fast!!! I'm finishing my first module.. 8 more to go... Still going strong!!!

Rushing to finish my project, due date thurs... Haha... 2 more days.. Got a few more slide to finish.. Rehearsal to do and letting Mr Dave go thorugh to see if there are anythings that we left out..

Posting my nail design... Fianlly managed to dl it into my comp...


Isn't the jewel cool...

Altogether on 10 nails i have 45 jewels which cost me $35 !!!

7th month

Today is the starting of the 7th Month...

Went to do my infills for my scrylic and also did another new nail art.. Now it's blue coz ben chose.. Hee.. I find it nice.. It's a mixture of light blue, pale blue and also pearl glitter white... With 45 jewels on 10 fingers.. Hee... I even counted how many jewels i had....

Ben sick... Fever with cold and cough... He was already feeling unwell in the evening when i met him... But it grew worst when in the later part of the night.. Bought panadol for him and then send him home first..

Father bought new car on sat.... Honda Civic 1.6L v-tec... outside is pearl white and the inside is black... I chose the colour of the car... Will be sharing the car... Father pay full... But i share the usage of the car... Hee....

Juz found out on sun that ben went jail for 2 yrs... Was shocked but was tinking it's already the past. At least he thought of studying to learn a neew skill.. But he is still troubled with money... Happy to hear that he is the kind that saves..

first 4 days of sch

First 4 days of sch.. Wad can i say.. I'm being to like it.. But it's hell torture waking up like 7.30am very morning.. But i tried.. I noe it won't last long.. Haa.. That's me...

Been going jb these few days.. He doesn't nag or stop me.. Juz worry for me.. Bought a percious moment sewing.. Still in process.. Gonna make into a pillow.. So that he can hug when he sleeps... Hee...

lost $30

tried my luck on the last match... Bet $30 1X2 away FRANCE... Hai.. now it's all in the pocket of the government... Wad the freek... Wad i guessed all wrong.. WRONG to the MAX!!!

Going to start sch in like 8 hours time... Can't wait to meet new ppl and venture a new schooling environment.. Where i tink everything is on ur own.. To blend well with smart ppl and most importantly the teachers... Hee...

Kulai... 10 ppl... 6 bikes

Went kulai today... reallie a super long journey... My neck nearly broke off from my shoulder... But had a superb dinner... hehee... There were like 10 ppl with 6 bikes... heehee.. Cool siaH!!!

Managed to buy my bubble gum... Finally i can blow bubble!! Hee Hee....

Tml's my last day of work and i'm going to start sch on monday... Hope i can get my permed hair.. Hee hee.. Wanna look diff for my brand new day of sch... Hee...

sheer madness

Toally sheer madness this few days... Been going home late..

Went to get my scuplted acrylic nails done... finally... spent like 130 on the nails... then bought myself a bag for school use...

Went East coast with zhen long and jerren.. then we went to party world.... Stayed at his place the whole day of yesterday... Now home coz he had to go work...

Shacked...

pics of me and ben

Been wanting to post pics.. Hee...



Our first pic together..


Marilyn & Benjamin