been goign to lip disco and train on my martel.... but the thing is the first time i drank martel at lip... i dunnoe y but all my troubles seems to come into my head.. i tink of whether i should continue to be with bee... whether i should still tink of terry... whether i should go on with jackal.... a lot of whether.. then i will just sit one corner and stare at the lightings in lip disco... and follow the music. the ting is although the DJ play techno.. i will not dance but sit there and tink and day dream lor...
today went lip disco again... DANIEL, whom i got to noe the day before jio me go coz his brother b'dae... so after the D'n'D i went to paya leba to meet xiao long who fetched me to lip disco with his fren xiao an... then they opened martel and daniel's bro drink till he puked everything out lor... poor guy.. they had to send him back home... so i juz sat there and drink.. kept tinking of my troubles agian... then i was suppose to meet bee... but then i still didn;t want to leave lip... he kept asking me to call but i nvr lar.. i juz msged him... told him i will be back by 2 but i didn't.. now he calling me but i am not going to answer... then i dunnoe y but DANIEL toked to me and reallie toked some sense into me... he said that if someone reallie loves a person, he/she will onli love one and onli one.. how can someone cut his heart into 2 and love 2 person at the same time... he said that he is treating me as a toy to play...
but after hearing that.. i was tinking to myself.. i got the phone for bee... next i converted songs for him... then when he changed to his 256 memory card, i converted the songs to a bigger format for him... when his kangoo the CD player okie... i burned music for him... i do so many things for him for wad fuck... i go out with ppl he angry... he controls me... now i feel toopid for going on with him for so long... i tink it must end.. i tot about it.. i will not call or answer his calls tml.. let him be.. silent break so to speak... tml somemore i will not be able to accompany him at nite.. got to go to xing wei's b'dae buffet at his place.. in this one month lar.. so mny times we had quarrelled... so many times i have to hide and lie to him.. i feel veri farnie lor.. y i cannot "guan ming zhen da" and do things... y i muz report to ppl... yesh it is true that he cares and concerns about me.. but then it is too much lor.. i cannot stand it... it is liek joe... when it goes too much and over my limit... it is time to let go.. evne thou i let go.. to him it iwll not be a loss... he still has his gf to accompany him... i also will not haf a loss.. i still got a lot of frens to care for me and accompany me... i still got ppl who like and love me... tis is for my good and the good for all the ppl around me...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment