my first day at work

cool siah... the first day.. learnt a lot of things and made a lot of new frens... ppl there are veri friendly and corky lor... lot of things happen today... i cork up the register more than 5 times lor.. but i hope nothing happens lor.. heehee.. keep forgeting to put the reciept slip into the machine to print the reciept.. heehee but i learnt my lesson lar.. i will try not to make mistake tml... heehee... time passed a bit fast today and tml i am all alone at the front desk... scary siah.. hai~... no one to help... got to answer calls... entertain customer who aork in.. remember the appointments... make drinks for them... let them wear their kimono's.... print slip... wah.. so many things lor.. sianz half.. but i wish tml will be a betta day.. everything will go on smoothly... not so much cork up lor... there is a DnD on sunday lor.. and i must go.. dunnoe wad costume to wear lor.. sianz half... but at least i can half a free hair cut by the stylest!!! not bad siah!!! heehee

to pingz.. dun worry pingzz... forget about the troubles... do wad u like and wad u tink it is right.. u are making money for urself and not doing anything toopid.. i will be there for u alwayz... maybe can drop by bugis MONSOON third level at the edge and see see me... heehee.. i will be at the front desk unless got customer walk in lar... heehee.. miss u lotz...

happy that dar quarrell with his gf!!! today he with her to settle things.. but hope things will turn out fine and they will resort in a serious break up... and i haf him all to myself!!!!

i miss p>i>n>g!!!

super tired siah... yesterday went 72 biian with daniel and frens... then drank martel... then after that still headed down to devil's bar... wah... still crowded lor.. had to squeeze throughthe bloody crowd to get to the back lor... then they ordered barrel... 2 tiger 2 henekien... i mix here mix there drink.. heehee.. the henekien more chilled.. taste nicer when it goes down the throat... didn't manage to dance yesterday... sianz lei the music... the techno and house session... they suppose to play techno and house music... suddenly they play R and B lor... sianz.. those type malay like to listen.... i juz sit there and watch ppl dance and drink lor..

woken up by my mother... sickening...now cannot slp liao... still wanna slp lei.. but the monsoon not yet call.. hai~... oh yah... i quit or fired. or wadeva u can put it.. i am not working for 'EQuip design anymore'... lena sucks to the fucking core... ppl stomach pain go toilet... surely long wan wad..... then she say i have no interest in the job... dunnoe how to serve customer.. bloody hell lor... i am in sales line wan lor... this type of thing i noe lor.. stilll need her to tell me meh... sickenign ass... so she tell me not to work anymore.. okie lar.. all the more i happy... no need to see her farking lao bin again... her farkign attitude is farked up lor... so grown up still so bithchy... i noe she work longer than me lah... so wad the hell... so big meh... she also not the managing director... those ppl work there also poor thing... always kana her shit lor.. bloody ass lena... curse u cannot get married and cannot have children... treat ppl like that..

oh yah... i will be working at MONSOON... at bugis... not confirmed when start... tat WANG will call me to confirm... everyday muz wear black liao... sianZ half... so bori ng lor.. but wad to do.. no choice lor... good luck to me on my new job... at least this one can sit and answer call onli... so good lor...

listening to "tong hua'

i am so bloody happy lor... after exam... went home bath then straight away came out to meet dar for dinner... we went to heartland mall the hawker center to eat.. i ate mixed vegi rice he ate laksa... he likes laksa a lot lor... cannot tink of anything to eat will eat laksa wan.. hee.. then we went to watson coz i wanted to buy hair conditioner.. just nice onli had the hanna condition so if i go sentosa on sunday can bring along... then after that we went to supermarket.. he went to buy coke... after that we headed home... he dropped me at the block beside... then before i left him.. david called... david ask me whether i wanted to go LIP... then i said anyting.. so went how to change.. then before i left... mother asked me a lot of questions bout dar lar.... like how i got to noe him... wad does he work as... does he save.... toopid questions lar... then she asked bout terry.... wad happened between us... then told her lar... that his father was sick and needs medical attention.... that she started toking bout the news bout this lady got swindled of her money by some nice taxi driver... 100K over... then after that... i quickly left after david called me.. coz i was alreadi late... then took mrt to LITTLE INDIA... and walked all the way to rowell rd to meet david... then after that he went to hotel to bath and then we headed down to LIP... then around 12plus david had to leave to collect some debts... so i continued on as i had one whole jug to myslef.. then i asked john to help me drink a little... before david left... i called dar to come down to fetch me... so after a few dun wans... he finally agreed to come down... after david left... in a short while.. a old 'ah pek' came and sat at my table... then he kept looking my way but then i nvr look at him lar.. i kept looking at the dancer dance... no mood to dance alone... then before i left, be played techno... sianZzz half... went all the way to 14 the side road and found dar's striking van.... i was filled with smoke and alcohol... diaoZzzz.. then after that, we went to hougang KOPITIAM and bought mee and went home to eat... after the mee... i quickly went to bath... super refreshing after the bath lor... then while was waiting for my hair to dry.fff.. i was hugging dar... then i started the tickle thing again... heehee..... then he started on me lor... i totally curlled up like a worm... heehee... turning here and there....... but hugging him was so comfortable lor.... at one point of tikme my ear was at his mouth then he was breathing hard into my ear... the feeling was a ticklish... then he found another sensitive spot ... die die die.. but nvm.. i also noe that shoulder sensitive.... heehee!!!! he kept laughing and laughing... and i also.. my goodness... reallie had lots of fun playing with him...

sianz... quarrell again

it's horrible... i feel so lost.. dar nvr call me... i msged him so many times called but then like the phone off like that.. i dunnoe wad to do lor...

arh!!!!! yesterday quarrelled again.. becoz of a word "wadeva".. hai~... dunnoe lar... told him i was going to meet daniel then he also angry... not that i du wanna meet him lor... i tot at nite can hang out at my place wad.. dunnoe y he like tt also... then he went to lao da's place to slp lor.. the whole nite no call no msg... beri saddening.. then somemore... tot can see his msg when i first wake up... sian... see nobody lor.. sianz half....

noe tinking of him like mad lor.. wondering wad the hell happened to him.. now look whose giving attitude... hai~... dun wanna tok bout it.... suppose to be studying... but stomach beri hungry... tml got MSDE paper.... heehee... so sad john not taking sub... then i got to study alone... heehee... okei.. tinking i betta continue dling my lecture notes.. heehe...

happy day.. tml MAPD paper....

heehee... dar came over today. that means my everyone at home has seen him lar... heex... wanted to say that he was my bf.. but then i dunnoe y.. the word cannot come out.. heehee... but then if i were to say bf then he can have license to come over to stay at nite and no need to sneak in.. hehee... but wad the hell...who cares... i love him more and more each day.. i noe i shouldn't but after that kiss... my goodness.. it totally changed my tinking about him... juz reallie wished that he onli had me.. hai~...

he came over to install some hp application into his phone... then we hugged and i was suppose to slp but then how to slp when he is here.. heehee... then at one point we were face to face and very near then he stick out his tongue.. i was surprised lor... onli kissed for a while lar.. then i just carried on hugging him... i dunnoe y but he is so nice to hug to slp lor... so comfortable... he not fat okei... juz huggable...heex... then after that... at bout 6 plus he fetched me to tamp mac to neet jason, jerren and john to study... when we went there... i put down my bag then went to the coffee shop to eat with dar...then he tot that i wan him to stay there and accompany me study.. but then he went home lar.. to watch the NKF show... but before he left, daniel called me.. haha.. surprisingly after yesterday's crying and toking... he suddenly to concern... heehee... but then i dun give a dam.. then when was with jerrenn and jason.. i ask them for a little advise lar.. on how to handle this type of person.. then they said their experience to me... i some sort understand wad i am going to go through..and luckily both of them say that this type of relationship cannot last long wan... so good lar...

dix came down when they went to eat dinner.. he was kinda cold towards me but after a while he noe that i went on with daniel... he became even more call.. he is not good in giving advise.. maybe coz of his childish manner. that's wad i tink... then when we came back he was nice lar.. i asked him to carry my bag for me coz it was super heavy .... but then when we were eating supper... his attitude come back again.. i didn't wan to tok to him lor.. cannot stand his childish manner... then he asked me whether i wanted to go lvl 3 to play pool... i didn't wan.. so i went straight home... hai~...

can't study lor.. nothing is going in lor... i dun even have the mood to open or flip the paper... going to bed soon... tired alreadi....

east coast got 24hr place to drink... cool man

left home bout 1 plus.. then went to geylang st 40 some karaoke pub with the boss and some other ppl... then after that waited for everyone to decide on where to go.. in the end after weiming went to fetch joanne then went to east coast... bbout 10 ppl went.. went there drink and eat sotong ball.. heehee.. played tai ti... not bad i still can win.. heehee...

drank and played and toked till 7 plus.. but when we were there saw some of their small ppl lar... then got this ger she was drank and she anyhow show temper... push chair lar.. "xia lan" lor... everybody all 'tu lan'... daniel also angry.... she somemore slam her ciggi box and some other thing on the table and threw ciggi bud on somebody else foot lor... too much lor she... then they quickly ask her to go off coz everybody very hot... especiaally daniel and wei ming.. they a bit drank liao lor... then when she left she kept looking at the guy who use helmet to hit her head... and shouted at them when she was walking away lor.. ricky and ah li saw were angry and nearly went up to her and say her lor... super scary.. lucky daniel sit down and 'ren'... he didn't do anything... coz i around mah.... then she left then we left... now home.. hair wet... wanna call or msg dar but still cannot.. scared he still at the gf's place... hai~... i tyr to slp... nitez... wad a nite man!!!

shocking...

something super shocking happen today... okie.. went over to bee's place after work... was suppose to go have dinner with him but in the end something happen.... okie... was watching tv and he was packing "dun haf dun haf"... then i asked him wad happened and he said that his gf was asking whether he was still seeing me... it was so coincident coz yesterday when i wrote my bulletine... i said that i hope something will happen between he and his gf and it is reallie happening.... i am reallie shocked... then he checked his friendster account and found out that somebody read the message that i sent to him yesterday... his gf was reallie pissed off... then to help him lessen the quarrell.... i send back a msg and tried covering up that the msg i sent him was wrong and i was suppose to send to someone... got to help him a bit lar... but then... i am reallie happy that something bad hapened... i am reallie reallie beri happy... cannot stand it lor... oh yah.. my HP is back and working... heehee.. yeh!!! happy... sha-la-la... okie i am back onto earth.... yoz ppl!!!!! MARILYN is BACK!!!!

ppl!!!! listen up

first of all.. i have to say reallie soorie to the ppl who have been trying to contact me for the past few days... my line got cut.. but i will reconnect it soon... feel lost without a phone... reallie soorie...

secondly... i have a new person in my life now.. but i am juz taking a step at a time.. ping has seen his pic and she said it was unpleasent.. this word is much nicer... his background not that nice... but i onli can say one thing is that ppl around me call me "da sao".. er... guess u should noe wad i mean by not nice background lar... but he is a joker kind of person.. sweet.. but not that nice looking... shorter than me but i hack care... dun give a dam... i stand out most of the time lar.. been going out with him these few days... go drink... and drink... and drink... now i training martel... hehee... trying to cut down on going to the toilet after drinking martel.. heehee.. we went to karaoka pub this morning... sang like frog croaking... horribe lor.. but still sing lar... give face lor... den took few pic with my fren... he got a bit drank lar... so he lied on my lap and slp... legs nearly break.. heehee.. he so big size... heehee... muscle like mountain like that...

lots of things happen these days lar.. tried breaking with bee... but he still wans to go on... but i tink in real life if bee had no gf and i had to choose between bee and daniel.. i will choose bee... hai~... complicated... bee came over to my place to slp.... and dl his hp stuff lar.. den he slept beside me... the feeling was so nice lor... veri comfortable... the day before he kept knocking my forehead lor.. he may be a bit rough lar.. but he is reallie sweet at times.. hai~.... like that... juz wish his gf will juz leave him or something bad happen between them and they break off... then i can reallie be with bee lor.. hai~.. still waiting to sit bee's bike.. miss his bike... but now i seldom meet bee alreadi... coz with daniel always veri late... 3..4...5..6..am then reach home... then slp until afternoon... seems like my night life come back again lor...

oh yah... currently i am working at plaza singapura... 5th level... a shop that sells bathroom stuff lar... beside escalator one... so anyone wanna come see see me or anything.. come... heehee... juz walk in and pretend to look at stuff... but from sat to the 22nd i will not be working.. got sub paper next week.. got to study... okeioke... tink that is all.. got to try to slp... tml still got to work... nitez ppl

tot it hard and long... it's for my good and the good of all the ppl around me...

been goign to lip disco and train on my martel.... but the thing is the first time i drank martel at lip... i dunnoe y but all my troubles seems to come into my head.. i tink of whether i should continue to be with bee... whether i should still tink of terry... whether i should go on with jackal.... a lot of whether.. then i will just sit one corner and stare at the lightings in lip disco... and follow the music. the ting is although the DJ play techno.. i will not dance but sit there and tink and day dream lor...

today went lip disco again... DANIEL, whom i got to noe the day before jio me go coz his brother b'dae... so after the D'n'D i went to paya leba to meet xiao long who fetched me to lip disco with his fren xiao an... then they opened martel and daniel's bro drink till he puked everything out lor... poor guy.. they had to send him back home... so i juz sat there and drink.. kept tinking of my troubles agian... then i was suppose to meet bee... but then i still didn;t want to leave lip... he kept asking me to call but i nvr lar.. i juz msged him... told him i will be back by 2 but i didn't.. now he calling me but i am not going to answer... then i dunnoe y but DANIEL toked to me and reallie toked some sense into me... he said that if someone reallie loves a person, he/she will onli love one and onli one.. how can someone cut his heart into 2 and love 2 person at the same time... he said that he is treating me as a toy to play...

but after hearing that.. i was tinking to myself.. i got the phone for bee... next i converted songs for him... then when he changed to his 256 memory card, i converted the songs to a bigger format for him... when his kangoo the CD player okie... i burned music for him... i do so many things for him for wad fuck... i go out with ppl he angry... he controls me... now i feel toopid for going on with him for so long... i tink it must end.. i tot about it.. i will not call or answer his calls tml.. let him be.. silent break so to speak... tml somemore i will not be able to accompany him at nite.. got to go to xing wei's b'dae buffet at his place.. in this one month lar.. so mny times we had quarrelled... so many times i have to hide and lie to him.. i feel veri farnie lor.. y i cannot "guan ming zhen da" and do things... y i muz report to ppl... yesh it is true that he cares and concerns about me.. but then it is too much lor.. i cannot stand it... it is liek joe... when it goes too much and over my limit... it is time to let go.. evne thou i let go.. to him it iwll not be a loss... he still has his gf to accompany him... i also will not haf a loss.. i still got a lot of frens to care for me and accompany me... i still got ppl who like and love me... tis is for my good and the good for all the ppl around me...

another quarrelling day

was so enjoying the day i had today until in the nite... hai~.. yesterday dar came over my place... tried downloaded his songs.. but then i change the song to wrong format... so had to start things again.. he fall asleep coz he had to work the next day... i tried to slp but then he was snooring too loud cannot stand it so i couldn't slp peacefully.... so finally it was 630.. i quickly ask him to leave coz i wanna slp... so after he left i slept till 3.. then woke up and continued doing for him his song.. he finished work at 4 mah...

then around 7 went over to his place and bought dinner for him... he ate "hor fun" and i ate " char cio" rice.... then transfered the songs for him.. around 11 he went to meet qian li to let him dl dunnoe wad game... but he went for a while.. but before he went to his car.... he was angry coz i wanted to go lips... then he got frustrated and left.. then i juz kept toking to sarah.. he reallie got veri angry.... anf he found out that i lied to him that i secretly go out at nite to lips...hai~.. then he said again that he wanted to end this relationship... i was tinking once and again.. i tink i should end it.. i dunnoe how long can i survive with him... lost... hai~.. but i am goign to lips lata for sure.. drown myself in my misery...

waiting for time to go pass fast... can't wait to drink... dunnoe wad to wear also... hai~...

boring day...

had a nice time with ah ma today... was suppose to go little india to wat "paper thosai" heehee.. but i was having a hang over after drinking too much yesterday...heheee.. accidentally vomitted a little on my floor.. but i still could clean.. heehee... okie.. tt was tt... dun wanna elaborate more about yesterday...

so instead of going little india.. we ended up eating KFC at hougang mall.. ah ma was toking about her "troubled..irritated" 12 yr old kid... heehee.. kids can be cute.. they also can be irritating... heehee.... then after that.. we went to some void deck somewhere near IJ-punggol... and she taught me to play 'tai-ti'.... was so happy that i won on the third round.. heehee.. it was fun.. nearly got addicted... heehee.. then after that i went home.. tot dar could meet me.. but then he went to see his uncle in the hospital.. so hai~.. like he dun wanna meet me like that.. 3 days alreadi lor... hai~... dun wanna tink about it.. i go eat dinner...