Hai~… another sad day… terry finally gave me an answer… was playing maple.. den I asked him how was decision… he still told me tt he dunnoe but I insisted he gave me an answer… he said this “ I feel that single is the best at theis moment”… reallie sadden me lor… didn’t noe that he will give a negective answer.. I did not vry… couldn’t cry out.. I dunnoe y…. I am sad inside but no feelings seem to pour out… told him that I couldn’t slp and will cry… he just sadi “soorie”… told him soorie does not change the relationship… but he said that we can still be frens… I still cannot forget him for real… but tink in a happy way.. I still gt dar dar… hai~… it is going on again like last time lor… after musang was joehani… after joehani was terry….. after terry is ah bee… I have not been single yet lor.. so saddening… miss being single… but nt yt have the chance lor…. Sad…. Hai~… told terry nt to come on sundat for my birthday celebration… didn’t want the whole thing to turn bad… everything will be happy…. Nothing is going to make my mood change… it’s my day on sun… if he doesn’t get me anything will be fine.. I won’t say anything coz we are juz frens… now… been tinking whether there is chance for us to be together’?? hai~ tt’s for next time to tink.. dun wanna tink bout it… now I juz enjoy myself with dar dar… and dun tink so much…
Hope Sunday he will come to my house for the celebration… dunnoe whether dar dar will come anot.. hehee.. realle excited bout my b’dae… everybody will be here lor… all my sec sch frens…

Oh yah… juz now jackal asked me whether he could be my bf .. of coz he beat around the bush lar… but that was wad he was wanting to ask… I also dunnoe wad to tell him… feelings for him have nt established… I dun feel anyting for him… I am still in love with dar…. Hai~ confused… puzzled!!! Hai~ I also dunnoe how long can me and dar dar be 2gether…. I dunnoe….. it’s been onli 2 mths lor.. but everything seems all right …. If tml which is fri.. he goes with me to rush.. then sat he accompany me at night… den sun I accompany him after my lesson at ubi… den at night he come to my house for dinner… tt means he 1 week nvr see his lao da… good progression lor… den after tt he can be mine lor… heehee… so selfish of me… but den tis type of thing cannot share one lor… how can!!! Heehee.. wad’s mine is mine..

I started a blog yesterday.. alex intro me… he broke up with his gf yesterday…. Haha… den he wrote everything on his blog… I started one the webby is http://xxgongzhuxx.blogspot.com
Hehee.. put pics and wrote 2 blogs already… heehee… forgot to tell ping I got the blog.. tell here another day….

Okeioeki… tink tt is all for the day.. need to get some ret or else tml cannot wake up for sure… I am feeling alright… nuthign wrong… dun worry…