2 months of harvok...

It's been total up and down this 2 months... Been wanting to write but didn't have the time..

Now arnold has disappeared into thin air and that's freaking good. Finally he is gone for good. Bee has been slowly gaining trust back towards me and he has been treating me with more love and show now...

Just celebrated is b'dae... Morning went to JB to get him sport seats... SSCUS... dam nice... then had "bak Ku Teh" for breakfast.. rather heavy thou.. then we headed to city square to get my eyelash glue and he bought underwear... After that we headed home to rest first... About 7 we headed to Suntec convention hall for the IT fair... where i got my cooling fan for my labtop and a optical mouse for my boss... after that we had steamboat at bugis... then we headed to fort road to meet his frens to chit chat.. there was when i brought out the heart shape cookie which i got as a birthday cake... could see that he was veri happy and surprised.. then headed to mustafa with his fren to get some daily stuff... then went to "Punggol Nasi Lemak" to drink then headed home..

Super long day.. i'm freaking tired.. hai... But i had loads of fun... And a memorable 1!!!

He also mentioned something about when i wanna "Q" up to register for a flat... I was so shocked that he even popped this question... But after that... I found out that 1 of his fren has already got a flat... and is planning on getting married.. Then it made me think that he is just influenced by them... Hai!.. Puzzled again.. I dunnoe where i'm heading to now...

Tot about changing job... Doing wad i wan... Bee told me that y i onli aim for SIA and not other airlines like budget airlines.. Actually, frankly i didn't tink of that... But i have asked around and is still waiting for any openings.... See how it goes lar...

Now the thing that is bothering me is that my parents will have a hard time accepting bee if we ever went on serious and plan to get married.. Mum said before that she doesn't like him.. But the fact is that i am attached to him not my parents.. But another way, it's best that ur parents like that person.. then at least everything will go on fine in the futre... Confused.. Reallie hope that there is someway to noe where i'm heading to... Cause i'm reallie lost and i dunnoe wad to do.. I'm scared that i will ruin my future and regret my whole life... So much to tink about.... Suddenly feel so EMO... Hai... "Walk 1 step see 1 step".. Hai....

The last day i noe Arnold

Before i start anything.. Just wanna aplolgise for the tons of spelling mistake i made in the last blog entry.. Hee

Kinda sort things out with Arnold.. So he is finally disappearing from my life.. But he will return the stuff and my money... Not that hard to put down thou.. Cause the chemistry is just pure friendship.. But since he has a deeper feeling for me.. But i don't.. so i could easily let go.. Sometimes i reallie hate myself.. I give ppl the wrong signal and end up in deep shit.. Have to seriously change..

Me and Bee are going fine as off now.. Did another make over today.. Was delighted by all the pictures and i took a outfit with boxing glove.. isitn't that cool.. Just love the pictures.. I love the photographer LISA LUM.. She's the best.. she adjusted the lighting and everything till the effects were so nice.. But i will onli collect the pictures maybe next week or so.. I did take pictures on my outfit and make up and hair do onli.. Heeeee...


Sporty outfit
Smart Casual outfit
Venne and me

Wad a long and tiring day of ups and downs..

Really been a tiring day...

In the morning, my GD( grandmother) fainted in the toilet.. When i heard the loud thud i was shocked.. Then i heard my mother calling out to my GD seeing if she was ok. I carried my niece while my mother calmed my grandmother. Then after my GD went back to her room. My dad brought my niece home and then send my mother and GD to the hospital.

My mother stayed at the hospital the whole time. When me dad and bro went there, mother told us wad happened when they arrived there in the morning. When they arrived at the clinic, GD's face was very white. The mother saw that, she quickly called the nurse to help and when the nurse came, my GD fainted on the nurse's shoulder.. Mother cried. The after doing some scans, the doc said that GD's artery was 70%-80% clog, so there is little blood going through the brain. Doc gave 2 suggestions, one was to inject a medication that will not make the artery clog up anymore, the other is to operate to remove the clogs. Mother told GD about it and concluded on the operation.

Operation took about 3 and a half hours... was so eager to noe the outcome.. When the surgent asked all of us to go into the meeting room, his first words were so reliefing. He said that all the clogs were taken out and he even showed us the pictures. We were all so delighted. The we had to wait for like half and hour to take a glimpse at GD. She was still under the morphine, but we just wanted to see that she was alright.

When i saw GD, i nearly teared. She was all wrinkled and there were so many tubes on and in her. So painful to see.. hai...

But i reallie hope she can recover fast and get back to the pink of health..

I LOVE YOU GD!!!

Arnold moved my heart

Actually we started out like frens... but it took abother step which was a scary part for me...

He touched my heart just now by cycling to my place and handing me a cup of warm honey water that he made from his place.. He put in a thermostat mug and brought it over.. I didn't even realise when he was chating with me... When he arrived i was like shocked and touched.. Haha... Couldn't stop smiling... He did that cause i was sneezing badly while camming and chatting with him... So sweet of him... Hai...


The mug


The sweet warm hearted honey water..

Updates

Had so much fun with ping, sarah and padma... Sad news is Dave is already gone to New Zealand to work... But Sarah need not worry coz she has me and padma to acc her.. I'll miss my Ah Boo a lot... wad's more me sarah and padma have been going out.. like t fashion bar and everything so it's been like dam interesting and exciting...

Been finding a job lately.. kinda difficult.. Searching for something in the hotels...

I'm still with ah bee.. moods have been up and down.. but i feel that he is treating this relationship to a different level.. but i'm still the same... heehee...

Feelings for james are like going down.. I dun have the urge to meet or call or even msg him.. but he is not letting go...

Don is already gone.. I dun care about his existance.. he tried to talk to me but i didn't bother...

Now there's another... Arnold... He's Jerren's ex's fren.. He just stays 7 mins away from me.. we have been going out consistantly.. dinner... going out shopping.. following me to dye my hair... having supper.. watching movie.. and now on his webcam and let me see him slp.. He is like 170... tattoos... soccer player... part time waiter at swissotel... 26 this year.. has a mother, sis and younger bro.. He sleeps so soundly and cute.. haha.. But i can't.. Hai...

This just sucks lar... I wanna get a sutible job for myself.. get all my dreams done.. hai...

partying with sarah padma and james at Fashion Bar

Me and my Love



Tongue out..


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Cousins untied


3some...


5 Babes!!!!


Kisssing my KUTI


6 Blowjobs..


licking the cream..


The whole gang


Cool day... went out with sarah and padma... Had dinner at Thai Express.. then headed to Fashion Bar... then james and joseph came... It was a blast at Fashion Blast... padma left early with her bf... we headed to Arena..then sarah left about 2 plus... but me james and joseph continued on... can u believe that me and james actually slept outside Arena!!! and it's like after puking... hahahaha... Unforgetable nite!!!

Hapoy day with james....

Such an interesting and fun time..

Met james after his game and supper at AMK then fetched his fren home.. Headed to T2 to slack while waiting for his cousin, Joseph, to touch down at the budget terminal. Took pics and ate mac while waiting..

Joseph's flight was delayed for 1 houur... long wait.. there was like nothing to do at budget terminal.. When his cousin arrived, it was like 4am... when the flight was suppose to reach at 2.50am... The reason they gave was technical fault.. But i tink it was just bullshit.. After recieving his cousin, went to Jalan Kayu to have supper.. After supper, fetched his cousin back and then headed home..

James kept thanking me and kept saying that he was dam happy.. was touched thou.. his actions and words just moved me... heehee.. Reallie shacked.. Tml will be a long day of shopping, celebration and drinking... hahaha..

Christmas is finally here!!!!!!!!!!!!


Getting ready to go...



2 with the christmas tree!!



James with the tree



Me with the tree!!



Mac for supper


At budget terminal

Went Vivo with james

Went Vivocity after work on sat with james.... Told him to wear red.. So both of us were walking ang bao's.. I was like a mad woman... Talking non stop and crackign toopid jokes.. Haha... But really enjoyed myself.. Had marche for lunch and it was fabulous!!! Heehee.. He was like so totful... Hai~ Makes my heart move.. Took some pics at the top floor over looking sentosa... After lunch it rained... But we were sheltered so not a big issue...


At the top


Big SmilezzZZzz


Took this myself.. Good position!!


James with the christmas tree on his head...


Making farnie faces!

Our Superub Lunch!!


The Best Cranberry Sauce i had!!!


The Christmas Tree of Vivocity..


Mini Waterfall at Vivocity


Going back in the train.. Actin Cute...

Me ping and mel

Finally we met up.. It's been very long since 3 of us met...

went far east 5th level, wasabi something japanese restaurant... My goodness. the food there is just simply heaven!!! The boss is the first fierce boss i ever seen.. There were onli 16 seats and operated with only 2 staff.. the boss and his wife.. Price ther is reasonable and the food is top!!!

After which we headed to Cini, Hong Kong cafe to slack.. Too 100 over pics.. Haha...

Had loads of fun, hope that we can do this often...

Padma's 21st celebration

8th Dec 2007

It was such a fun day...

Got so excited and went all out to dress up and made my hair... James was so nice as to accompany me to the party... We were both in white and when we went there, not many ppl wore white. We were like limelight.. Heehee.. there were games and prizes also.. Totally memorable party... I will nvr forget!