The last day i noe Arnold

Before i start anything.. Just wanna aplolgise for the tons of spelling mistake i made in the last blog entry.. Hee

Kinda sort things out with Arnold.. So he is finally disappearing from my life.. But he will return the stuff and my money... Not that hard to put down thou.. Cause the chemistry is just pure friendship.. But since he has a deeper feeling for me.. But i don't.. so i could easily let go.. Sometimes i reallie hate myself.. I give ppl the wrong signal and end up in deep shit.. Have to seriously change..

Me and Bee are going fine as off now.. Did another make over today.. Was delighted by all the pictures and i took a outfit with boxing glove.. isitn't that cool.. Just love the pictures.. I love the photographer LISA LUM.. She's the best.. she adjusted the lighting and everything till the effects were so nice.. But i will onli collect the pictures maybe next week or so.. I did take pictures on my outfit and make up and hair do onli.. Heeeee...


Sporty outfit
Smart Casual outfit
Venne and me

Wad a long and tiring day of ups and downs..

Really been a tiring day...

In the morning, my GD( grandmother) fainted in the toilet.. When i heard the loud thud i was shocked.. Then i heard my mother calling out to my GD seeing if she was ok. I carried my niece while my mother calmed my grandmother. Then after my GD went back to her room. My dad brought my niece home and then send my mother and GD to the hospital.

My mother stayed at the hospital the whole time. When me dad and bro went there, mother told us wad happened when they arrived there in the morning. When they arrived at the clinic, GD's face was very white. The mother saw that, she quickly called the nurse to help and when the nurse came, my GD fainted on the nurse's shoulder.. Mother cried. The after doing some scans, the doc said that GD's artery was 70%-80% clog, so there is little blood going through the brain. Doc gave 2 suggestions, one was to inject a medication that will not make the artery clog up anymore, the other is to operate to remove the clogs. Mother told GD about it and concluded on the operation.

Operation took about 3 and a half hours... was so eager to noe the outcome.. When the surgent asked all of us to go into the meeting room, his first words were so reliefing. He said that all the clogs were taken out and he even showed us the pictures. We were all so delighted. The we had to wait for like half and hour to take a glimpse at GD. She was still under the morphine, but we just wanted to see that she was alright.

When i saw GD, i nearly teared. She was all wrinkled and there were so many tubes on and in her. So painful to see.. hai...

But i reallie hope she can recover fast and get back to the pink of health..

I LOVE YOU GD!!!

Arnold moved my heart

Actually we started out like frens... but it took abother step which was a scary part for me...

He touched my heart just now by cycling to my place and handing me a cup of warm honey water that he made from his place.. He put in a thermostat mug and brought it over.. I didn't even realise when he was chating with me... When he arrived i was like shocked and touched.. Haha... Couldn't stop smiling... He did that cause i was sneezing badly while camming and chatting with him... So sweet of him... Hai...


The mug


The sweet warm hearted honey water..

Updates

Had so much fun with ping, sarah and padma... Sad news is Dave is already gone to New Zealand to work... But Sarah need not worry coz she has me and padma to acc her.. I'll miss my Ah Boo a lot... wad's more me sarah and padma have been going out.. like t fashion bar and everything so it's been like dam interesting and exciting...

Been finding a job lately.. kinda difficult.. Searching for something in the hotels...

I'm still with ah bee.. moods have been up and down.. but i feel that he is treating this relationship to a different level.. but i'm still the same... heehee...

Feelings for james are like going down.. I dun have the urge to meet or call or even msg him.. but he is not letting go...

Don is already gone.. I dun care about his existance.. he tried to talk to me but i didn't bother...

Now there's another... Arnold... He's Jerren's ex's fren.. He just stays 7 mins away from me.. we have been going out consistantly.. dinner... going out shopping.. following me to dye my hair... having supper.. watching movie.. and now on his webcam and let me see him slp.. He is like 170... tattoos... soccer player... part time waiter at swissotel... 26 this year.. has a mother, sis and younger bro.. He sleeps so soundly and cute.. haha.. But i can't.. Hai...

This just sucks lar... I wanna get a sutible job for myself.. get all my dreams done.. hai...