2nd time

It happened again... Hai... bout his ex-gf... Tot he made it clear to her the other day... but the fact is he did not tell her the full pic and just let her dangle int he air without a reason about their breakup.

Finished watching Mummy 3 with him and Zelgen... was looking at his phone for the time and saw 11 msges and 14 miss calls... i snached the phone from him and read the msges.. saw from it that he actually met up with her on thurs and that was the day that i was doing OT. Was freaking angry and pissed and at the same time my heart was crying... He called the ger and i did manage to talk to the girl.. seems nice... Told her wad she wanted to her and she said that she won't contact him anymore.. It still leaves a big question that will he do the things of wad he did to her to me... Haiz... It's so hard to find someone whom u reallie love.. but y must that someone do this type of things to even break that simple trust... Is it so hard to be honest... Honesty just reallie sucks... haiz.... How long do u regain somebody's trust?? 1 day? 1 week? 1 month? 1 yr?

Contridicting.. but i believe that this quarrel will make us stronger... I wan him to feel how is it to lose someone u reallie love.... KARMA>... I TOTALLY BELIEVE IN THAT!!!!

Grandpa passed away

Sad... my grandfather passed away on wed... been busy at the wake entertaining ppl and doing crowd control.. but at the same time is a good reuion for the cousins untied.. heehee... missed the times when all the cousins are together..

Grandpa lived till 88... but i just feel that this is not a good yr... many misfortunate are bound to happen soon... hai.. A lot of ppl visited on thurs and fri.. but tonite... i'm asking my buddies to come down to play MJ... spice up the scene... heehee... gonna take some pics to post up...

Bugis with vyvy

Had headache after when i was delivering policy at IMM... but it wasn't that bad.. so i perservered till i met vyvy.... went to eat dark rice for dinner.. at the coffee shop opp mos burger.. then i happen to see the orangey sky.. nice scenery and i tink my photography skills are inproving...
















Then after which we headed to bugis village to do our eye lashes... this time round i had actually open my eyes properly without worrying that i will tear... the workmanship is good... my eyes didn't stick to each other!!!

Final Showdown for Singtel Grid Girl

It's the last episode of the show.. venue was at the singpaore flyer... we had the chance to be on the race track... super hot day... totally burning... stood under the sun for like 2 hours while waiting for the 4 contestants to finish their race... took tons of pic.. Happy!!!


The Scene of the Shoot..























































The Crew

GorGeous Babes!!!





















The Reception

With the lime light!!

my Babylove....

It's just like we are so fated to be together.. my parents are starting to accept him... at least they noe of his presence... even my mother's sis and husband noes.... heehee... said he was younger looking... but wad the hack... i'm in love with him and not them... Been wanting to post some pics of him... Here they are...



Our first pic together in the MRT..


















Taken at StarBucks at Suntec..
















Pic a bit too bright.. but we love to be in the lime light!!!
























At Budget Terminal. waiting for his cousin to touch down SG!










Taken at GRASX...

4th day....

I'm reallie contented with wad i have.... Someone who loves me more than i love myself... Someone who reallie treats me like a princess and consistantly telling me how much i'm been loved and how important i am in his life...

Finally i can put my heart arest and dun need to tink that i'm not being love...

He just suddenly said 'do you noe wad i look forward to now?'.....' I'm looking forward to stay together with you, able to hug u to slp and smell u..'

He even said that he didn't wanna bath cause my smell was liguring around him.. he is just so sweet... Nothing can doubt his love... when he whispered 'i love you'... the feeling was like cloud 9... flying mood... now i can't slp... that's bad but i have to... haix... I also wish that i can cuddle in his arms and lye on his chest and slp till morning.. But i guess i have to wait till we are official to me and his parents....

No turning back in this... It's going to last and i'm going to make it last... let this 4 days be 4 yrs.. and 4eva....

I've found my MR RIGHT!!!

All alone it has been him... and i've finally gave the green light... Ppl and my colleagues have asked and it just simply came outof my mouth that he is my BF... so i doubled confirmed that he is not going overseas to study and gave the green light...

He was so happy and kept smiling and rattling nonsense stuff... hahah.... been really stick to him as in i'm trying to noe him more... but the basics as name, b'dae, hp no... can remember... haha...

He is going to start work n wed!! OMg... finally somebody can take care of me!! and going out will be so much easier for me...

All the best for my committment!!! JUICE by me!!!

Long Holiday

3 Days of relaxing.. OMG.. it's supendous....

I can reallie say that bee is totally out of my life so as alvin... so relaxing....

Now i got my frens like "uncle chocolate", ah lun, ben, ping, vyvyan, and my darling colleagues for me to love and also for them to love.. it's just so easy going about with my everyday life... doing the things i like... going places with whoever that i wanna go.. that's how everybody should like.. not in misery but in shere enjoyment... Now i can relate to ppl about my past and advise ppl about it.. cool ah... Finding the right one is really tiring... i rather let and love many ppl then worry about 1... heeehee... think i'm going to be a nun... haha..

just home from mahjong at terry's fren, wellson's place.. lost $21.. heehee.. think it's because i play too much wahjong and forgot how to play the real mahjong. so nice cuddle in his arms... hai... those were the timees... memories... can only be recalled...

goanna be a boring VESAK DAY today.. no plans so i gues i'll just take today as hibernating day... SLP, SLP AND MORE SLP...

Singtel Grid Girls (17.05.08)

The Big Day has finally come... It was a blast... Seeing so many sexy beautiful ladies at the interview... reallie an eye opener for me....

Reallie showed wad i got today... I just was MYSELF.. no fake.. wadeva i said was from me... Being able to act on camera.. WOW... nerves wrecking... i was shiverring a little during the interview... many questioned they ask was about ur personality and wad do think it takes to be a grid girl... and also something about FHM girls.. I kinda forgot the question but i tink i answered a bit too directly but i hope i conveyed the correct thinking to the judges.. Come on F1 is a worldwide event.. U gotto have beautiful babes but not always in bikini and doing slutty poshes.. there should be a variety of outfits and also to suit the audiences that will be watching worldwide!

I really tot i did my best and reallie opened up myself... See how it goes in 2 weeks time... Cross my fingers... "LEt My RaCe BegIN!!!!"

2 months of harvok...

It's been total up and down this 2 months... Been wanting to write but didn't have the time..

Now arnold has disappeared into thin air and that's freaking good. Finally he is gone for good. Bee has been slowly gaining trust back towards me and he has been treating me with more love and show now...

Just celebrated is b'dae... Morning went to JB to get him sport seats... SSCUS... dam nice... then had "bak Ku Teh" for breakfast.. rather heavy thou.. then we headed to city square to get my eyelash glue and he bought underwear... After that we headed home to rest first... About 7 we headed to Suntec convention hall for the IT fair... where i got my cooling fan for my labtop and a optical mouse for my boss... after that we had steamboat at bugis... then we headed to fort road to meet his frens to chit chat.. there was when i brought out the heart shape cookie which i got as a birthday cake... could see that he was veri happy and surprised.. then headed to mustafa with his fren to get some daily stuff... then went to "Punggol Nasi Lemak" to drink then headed home..

Super long day.. i'm freaking tired.. hai... But i had loads of fun... And a memorable 1!!!

He also mentioned something about when i wanna "Q" up to register for a flat... I was so shocked that he even popped this question... But after that... I found out that 1 of his fren has already got a flat... and is planning on getting married.. Then it made me think that he is just influenced by them... Hai!.. Puzzled again.. I dunnoe where i'm heading to now...

Tot about changing job... Doing wad i wan... Bee told me that y i onli aim for SIA and not other airlines like budget airlines.. Actually, frankly i didn't tink of that... But i have asked around and is still waiting for any openings.... See how it goes lar...

Now the thing that is bothering me is that my parents will have a hard time accepting bee if we ever went on serious and plan to get married.. Mum said before that she doesn't like him.. But the fact is that i am attached to him not my parents.. But another way, it's best that ur parents like that person.. then at least everything will go on fine in the futre... Confused.. Reallie hope that there is someway to noe where i'm heading to... Cause i'm reallie lost and i dunnoe wad to do.. I'm scared that i will ruin my future and regret my whole life... So much to tink about.... Suddenly feel so EMO... Hai... "Walk 1 step see 1 step".. Hai....

The last day i noe Arnold

Before i start anything.. Just wanna aplolgise for the tons of spelling mistake i made in the last blog entry.. Hee

Kinda sort things out with Arnold.. So he is finally disappearing from my life.. But he will return the stuff and my money... Not that hard to put down thou.. Cause the chemistry is just pure friendship.. But since he has a deeper feeling for me.. But i don't.. so i could easily let go.. Sometimes i reallie hate myself.. I give ppl the wrong signal and end up in deep shit.. Have to seriously change..

Me and Bee are going fine as off now.. Did another make over today.. Was delighted by all the pictures and i took a outfit with boxing glove.. isitn't that cool.. Just love the pictures.. I love the photographer LISA LUM.. She's the best.. she adjusted the lighting and everything till the effects were so nice.. But i will onli collect the pictures maybe next week or so.. I did take pictures on my outfit and make up and hair do onli.. Heeeee...


Sporty outfit
Smart Casual outfit
Venne and me

Wad a long and tiring day of ups and downs..

Really been a tiring day...

In the morning, my GD( grandmother) fainted in the toilet.. When i heard the loud thud i was shocked.. Then i heard my mother calling out to my GD seeing if she was ok. I carried my niece while my mother calmed my grandmother. Then after my GD went back to her room. My dad brought my niece home and then send my mother and GD to the hospital.

My mother stayed at the hospital the whole time. When me dad and bro went there, mother told us wad happened when they arrived there in the morning. When they arrived at the clinic, GD's face was very white. The mother saw that, she quickly called the nurse to help and when the nurse came, my GD fainted on the nurse's shoulder.. Mother cried. The after doing some scans, the doc said that GD's artery was 70%-80% clog, so there is little blood going through the brain. Doc gave 2 suggestions, one was to inject a medication that will not make the artery clog up anymore, the other is to operate to remove the clogs. Mother told GD about it and concluded on the operation.

Operation took about 3 and a half hours... was so eager to noe the outcome.. When the surgent asked all of us to go into the meeting room, his first words were so reliefing. He said that all the clogs were taken out and he even showed us the pictures. We were all so delighted. The we had to wait for like half and hour to take a glimpse at GD. She was still under the morphine, but we just wanted to see that she was alright.

When i saw GD, i nearly teared. She was all wrinkled and there were so many tubes on and in her. So painful to see.. hai...

But i reallie hope she can recover fast and get back to the pink of health..

I LOVE YOU GD!!!

Arnold moved my heart

Actually we started out like frens... but it took abother step which was a scary part for me...

He touched my heart just now by cycling to my place and handing me a cup of warm honey water that he made from his place.. He put in a thermostat mug and brought it over.. I didn't even realise when he was chating with me... When he arrived i was like shocked and touched.. Haha... Couldn't stop smiling... He did that cause i was sneezing badly while camming and chatting with him... So sweet of him... Hai...


The mug


The sweet warm hearted honey water..

Updates

Had so much fun with ping, sarah and padma... Sad news is Dave is already gone to New Zealand to work... But Sarah need not worry coz she has me and padma to acc her.. I'll miss my Ah Boo a lot... wad's more me sarah and padma have been going out.. like t fashion bar and everything so it's been like dam interesting and exciting...

Been finding a job lately.. kinda difficult.. Searching for something in the hotels...

I'm still with ah bee.. moods have been up and down.. but i feel that he is treating this relationship to a different level.. but i'm still the same... heehee...

Feelings for james are like going down.. I dun have the urge to meet or call or even msg him.. but he is not letting go...

Don is already gone.. I dun care about his existance.. he tried to talk to me but i didn't bother...

Now there's another... Arnold... He's Jerren's ex's fren.. He just stays 7 mins away from me.. we have been going out consistantly.. dinner... going out shopping.. following me to dye my hair... having supper.. watching movie.. and now on his webcam and let me see him slp.. He is like 170... tattoos... soccer player... part time waiter at swissotel... 26 this year.. has a mother, sis and younger bro.. He sleeps so soundly and cute.. haha.. But i can't.. Hai...

This just sucks lar... I wanna get a sutible job for myself.. get all my dreams done.. hai...