2 more days .. and i'm back to sch....

nothing nice to be happy about.. leaving MONSOON soon... hai~.. will surely miss everyone there.. nobody i deslike there so good.. tink i left a good impression lar... heehe

but there's nothing to be happy about.. had a small quarrel with dar.. about that toopid alvin... sickening.. for wad his gf did to me... he still dare to ask me out.. how to forgive him... so wad he got car.. his character juz sux lor... hai~.. but i hope everything is settled alreadi... juz want back the feeling i had from the last 2 days... earning to call and see him.... and toking causally... hope it will be soon... hai~... hoping to start sch with a good startt..

niteZ... it's super late... tml cannot wake up for work!!!!!

wad thinGs arE fine.. my ass.!!

serously is not that i wan to argue or get angry lor... she can say that she is sick and he will surely go down and fetch her lor... when i say he juz ask me to go home and rest.. dun even bother at all... wad am i.. lao er wad.. wad to do... i reallie felt veri hurt.. i got super angry... he juz said soorie...

wad am i to do.. feelings are juz mixed and i also dunnoe wad to do lor.. yesterday he onli accompany me for a while lor.. the he went to accompany his fren.. tot maybe he will come and meet me today.. and wad he was doing? sllping!!!! wad the hell lor... although i noe he spends more time with me but then feelings are juz not there.. when he say he care for me a lot.. this is the way called care... my ass lor.. feel super angry....

EVERYTHING'S FINE FInALLY!!!

everything is finally back to normal... i hope it is for good.... hai~... after the whole of last week and this week's quarrel... finally a day without any argument... felt SUPER GREAT lor... hai~.. hope it will stay like this for long...

i noe i was suppose to break up with him... but i my heart too soft lar.. hai~... maybe it's me who didn't put myself in his shoes and tink bout things...

today after work... went dinner with frens... i didn't noe wad he wanted me to do... to go back then lata meet him or to go his place.. i also dunnoe.. so i went to eat lor... then he said he tot i coming to have dinner with him.. hai~.. messy lar... but in the end he went to ang mo kio to do his stuff... then around 10 plus i went over to his place... when at his place he was toking to somebody... then i juz sat oneside... then he finally turned over and tok to me... i was rather quiet lar... then i juz watched tv... then dunnoe wad happened he suddenly injured my shoulder and it was pain lor.. my face totally changed... then he smile smile try to rub for me lor.. he rub super pain lor... then i juz sat one side and rub myself... then that bitch called lar.. so i went to the kitchen ... not hoping that he will come lor... then after he tok finish... he came to the kitchen and hugged me from the back... then rub my shoulder gently...i didn't want to leave the kitchen then he carried me to the living room lor.. he was laughing and smiling all the way lor.. but i wasn't lar... after watching tv he started to look at some hp themes... he kept turning over and asked me for opinion... then i juz shake or nod my head lor.. heehee... i took out my the other hp and played with my mahjong... and also watched tv lar... then he went to look for his HP box... searched the whole house and couldn't find.. he was sweating like a PIG lor... drops of sweat juz drip down from his face.. haha.. i was laughing lor...then finally he found and i helped him to dl his NOKIA PC SUITE... and taught him how to use.. then after he bathed.. i gave him a gift that i bought for him... BLV PERFUME... $58... bought at bugis village 2nd floor... good price lar.. but the smell is nice lor... he said thanks and gave me like 5 kiss with 1 french kiss lar... heehee.. reallie longed for that long time liao lor... dunnoe y my heart like suddenly so attached to him again.. we reallie toked lor... about anything lor.. the feeling was like super great... then he waited till i finished writing a bullentine on friendster then we left...

he fetched me home then he went to meet ah boy... dunnoe who also... but who cares.. i didn't felt like going out lor... went home.. took a fresh bath.. then i watched THE PACIFICER.. cool show man... my fav actor.. VAN DISEL!!! dam nice lor his built!!! and his manly voice.. wow!!! heehee.. then painted my nails.. and put some nice sticker flower on the first..third and last finger of each hand.. nice lar.. then on top put glitter coating... now waiting for it to dry.. but the thing is i can't slp lar.. waiting for him to reach home mah.. miss my dar lei... the feeling juz come back lor...

but the thing tml he will be seeing her.. so i will surely be dam angry.. coz i got the feeling that i reallie like him a lot lor... wad to do... hai~... but i also bought a stud that dixon wanted.. heehee.. maybe meet him tml then pass to him.. he will surely like it a lot one lor.. heehe.. hope things will go on fine... can't wait to change HP lor... next week i will change... maybe asking david to sign line so that i can have the phone lor... hope everything goes on smoothly.... okeioke.. going to catch my ZzzzzZZzz... after tml cannot wake up... niteZZZzzzzzz... LOVE U TO THE MAX DAR!!!!!!!

totallLy troubLEd

i am totally troubled... sad.. moody.. i dunnoe wad to say... terry got a gf... somemore post a testi for her... so sweet.. made me cry... he nvr did this type of thing for me lor... maybe it's just fate lar...hai~...

i dunnoe how to go on with dar... i reallie dunnoe.. it's juz a total mixed up feeling.. i am lost.. i sometimes juz feel like giving up when we quarrel so much... arguing about small things.. i can't juz satisfy him.. maybe i'm too a outgoinging type of person... i seriously dunnoe... i even tried to break up with him.. tinking that he will accept it.. but i had to take it back... and we didn't.... kept tinking it was time to move on.. i am lost in life... too many things are happening... work... sch... relationship... fren.. it is totally making me go mad lor....

tried to relax and enjoy today... but ended up quarrelling in the afternoon... evening... hai~.. super sian lor.... nothing is going right.. NOTHING... i am totally lost... i dunnoe wad to do...

hai... going to start sch liao... sianzZZz

tinking of sch is going to start .. i will reallie miss them at MONSOON... ppl there are reallie dam nice lor... although there are still conflicts there which i noe of... but then me and all the staff there are veri cooperative... hai~... tml the new recep coming in... reallie hope she can make it lor.. or else i will have difficulty in starting sch lor... first week dun go sch dar will kill me wan lor... but in a good way... at least when i get my pay i can buy HP... tink of getting NOKIA3230.. change NOKIA phone maybe betta lar.. easier to use... can't stand sony ericsson alreadi.... sianz liao...

dar coming over later... things have been a bit betta since yesterday's truth tok... omg.. we tok till he fell asleep then my turn... my room was freezing... heehee.... kept tossing turning lor... then around 7 plus 8 he woke up and went back...

nothing interesting happen today.. juz the same fun and interesting day... wang is reallie a serious joker.. my goodness.. he kept walking around the salon wearing his MAN U scarf... then he came up with a MAN U cheer dance... haha.. we all laughed until stomach pain lor... hahaa.... mainly the whole day i was pondering whether the new recep will be able to take my place... if she is reallie confirm... i will surely teach her everything i noe lor.... hope she is nice lookign also.. heehee.... okeiokei.... i wanna go check my friendster... see whether ping got send me a testimonal anot.. heehee.... miss her dearly.... hope can see mel tml....

today is my off...

had a huge quarrel with dar yesterday... actually i went out with colin to eat... we went skethches to eat... then after that went mandarin hotel the bar at the 38th floor and tok... cool siah.. could see the whole of orchard.... then i drank vodka lime and he took dry martini... we toked and toked until about coming 12.45.. then dar kept caling... so i quickly went to grab a cab home... went i reached home... dar was actually sitting opp my house the block toking to me lor... i was shocked... first time he do something like that lor.... then had a huge quarrel... he slapped my cheek twice... nearly cried... but nvr .. that's not the point.. then toopid max msg something that not suppose to let dar see wan lor.. then he called max to comfront him... after finished quarrelling.. dar came over my place.. i totally knocked out... and slept.. when he tried waking me up at 7+ 8... i couldn't wake up lor... then i slept till 6 plus... heehee... now super hungry.... waiting for dinner...

i miss pping.... reallie wanted to meet her... hope when she see this she can at least gimmie a msg or meet me lata.... or something...

alone at home today

dar didn't come over today... he went to some "6th aunty's" funeral... with whom... her lar... then who... hai~... but today dunnoe y i didn't feel angry or anything... heehee.. i tink becoz he came over my place for 2 days already... hehe. 2 nights we watch initial D... i kept falling aslp... heehee... coz lying down wad... heehee...

work today was kind of busy... was running up and down... to take letter then to give the letter to phillip... hai~... hope tml or sunday can touch up on my red strikes... hai~... another busy day tml... it's sat... duh.... hee hee.... going to slp soon....

my off day went past so fast!!!

arh.. my off day... wad did i do.. went to MONSOON to dye my hair... i finally got back hair.. haha... actually it's supose to be very dark purple.. but the thing is the colour not yet fade.. so it will take time lor.. heehee... cool colour lar... feel so nice having balck hair.. then my highlight is copper red.. cool combination... wait till 1 or 2 weeks then the colour will fade...

after that meet dar for dinner... had a craving for laksa.. so went to katong to find laksa to eat.. then came back... now i waiting for him to come... heehee...

i need to change.... tml's my off!!!!

had a huge quarrell with dar today... becoz of last nitez.. went to lip and got a bit too high... then david brought me back to his hotel room to rest till morning... dun worry nothing happened to me... i still noe where i was.. but that time my head was super pain lor... slept like a baby man.. then morning 8 plus then went home.. as usual got scolding... den wanted to hide from dar lor.. but then he called my home and mother told him i juz came back...

the quarrell started at 9 plus in the morning and sort of ended at 7 plus in the nite... super sianz man.. the whole day... wanted to call him and tok things out but then addy was around so i couldn't hog onto the phone.. until bout 5 plus 6 then i managed to call dar in the toilet... away from addy... as usual he scolded me like fark,... chee bye here and chee bye there.. hai~... but after that.. he juz told me wad he didn't like... 1. me going chiong.. 2. me drinking too much.. 3. david... hai~... parthetic lor... now i got to be good girl and go home after work...sianz half lor... hai~... dun wanna tink so much lar... juz be plain jane for these few days lor... hai~...

finally my off day... tml!!!! i can wear home clothes... no more black.. heehee.. and i can walk around.... heehee... joanne going to do free digital perm and free colour.... i doing highlight and col... wanna do a new colour... dun wan brown liao.. sian of this colour liao lor... then sarah coming on sun to do rebonding.. free man!!! coz they got trainign so need ppl to train on lar.. heehe...

wooo... got miss me???

it's been long since my last entry i noe... so soorie... heehee... can say busy with work and busy with dar... heehee... he come over to my place how to write... heehee.... now i reallie noe wad's the life of working... it is serious stuff man... dun play play worx... as i said to many ppl the ppl at my work place are all nice... from malaysians to gays to tranvers... omgosh... reallie a fulfilling time i had lor..... they stay in johor and come to work.. omgosh... 'gao luk' lei... wake up so early... poor things.... heehee... but they are veri cute ppl lar... toking on the phone is getting a bit boring for me... "Hello Monsoon".... dunnoe how many times i say that in a day lor...

super HAPPY to meet my darling SARAH today... super long time since i met her lor... dam bad lor.. her relatives say she fat... too direct alreadi lor... wan to tell her also no need so direct wad.... hope nothing happens to her lar... dun wanna be called "godmother" so fast... heex... but reallie happy that she went back hope.. it;s been like coming 5 months lor... her parents surely missing her lke mad lor.... sometimes maybe u got to make them feel that u are important by MIAing.... heehee...

alone at home again... 2 days liao... dar go see gf... take ciggi... hai~... when will she go away.... hai~... but the ting is... my mum not so like dar ... heehee... she say he look like ah beng.... den terry dun look like beng meh... idiot lor!!!!

terry's b'dae was on 4/5... sewed for him winnie the pooh... and i wrote the msg on the cloth and folded and put into a bootie.. heehee.. then passed to him... when i saw him my heart couldn't stop pounding lor... kept toking bout work... hai~... actually tot could sit down and chat.. but then.. i couldn't... somemore the weather like going to rain like that... so i ask him go back first lor.... hai~... starting to miss lim dao rong... but i tink remaining as frens is betta lar..

i miss ping... she now in camp... sch camp.... also dunnoe when can see my darling.... miss her man... lots of thing to tok to her bout... tink she going to fall aslp when i tell her lor... i very long winded wan... heheee...

okeiokei i tink that is all for today.... tml gotto wake up early... niteZ